Where did my smile go?

What compelled me to write here again.May be more gloominess.Why is it so?
I wanna live.I wanna be happy.Mind my own business.None of it happens.NOBODY can undrstand what I'm going through and what I go through everyday.My own identity haunts me.To see myself in mirror scares me.Nobody cares.Selfish strange people care about their own perspectives.Why I feel I'm only one who considered and understood other's perspective along with mine.
My tears have gone dry and I'm slowly becoming hard and cold inside.I don't know whats going on.I just don't get anything. What I feel I'm not accepted for it.What I don't feel,I'm made to feel and accept that.Don't know how to end this story now.All I can say now is that Life teaches us in every step.THE MOMENT WE START TRUSTING SOMEONE BLINDLY that person breaks you.WHEN YOU EXPECT YOUR SILENCE TO BE UNDERSTOOD people take your words wrong,gestures aren't important even though shown heartily but fake words are appreciated!!
So don't make anyone your life,don't b affected by anyone's absence because when you face darkness it's you all alone who has to face it.I know no one can get me my life back.No one can ever bring that smile that brightened my day back.It has gone and even if I try to smile it hurts deep inside.The fake one I carry everyday along.But I usually ask myself,Where did my smile go?

Where did that smile go?
That small curve that everyone loved
Where did my smile go?
The curve that lit nights

Did it fly away with the wind
Or did it get buried into sands?
Did the spider take it and hid it in his web
Or did someone take it into his lands?

Where did my smile go?
The unique identity that I owned
Did it fall off while trekking
Or did the mountain ghost masticate it?

Did it get dissolved in acids
Or did it vaporise into gas?
Where did my smile go?
The smile I had, all while...
Where did it go?Who took it?

I Like it When it Rains

I like the rain. Why? Well, I can think of reasons I like it when it rains. I am the type who could go out and dance in the rain and not care who’s watching… that’s how much I like it. Well, let’s get started with those 7 reasons…
7. It’s Peaceful
Some people do not believe this, they get scared when it starts to thunder. However, I feel more at peace. I can easily relax when it is raining.
6. Good Reading Weather
I believe the rain makes good reading weather. On those rainy days, I just want to curl up on the couch and read a good book as I listen to the rain hit the roofs.
5. Good Writing Weather
Just as the rain makes good reading weather, it also makes good writing weather. While I am a fast writer, no matter what, I find it much more relaxing to write when it is raining. It’s not just because it cools the place down, because I like the rain, even during the winter months.
4. Makes it Pretty Outside
I also enjoy the beauty of the rain. I believe it is a very pretty thing that nature does. Some of the best pictures are taken in the rain. Not to mention how cool the clouds look during thunderstorms.
3. It Cools the Outside Off
As I said, this isn’t a main reason I like the rain, but that does not mean that I don’t like the reason. I like how the rain comes along and cools the outside off.
2. The Plants Enjoy it
If you look outside after it is raining, the plants look so happy. The plants that are outside enjoy the rain. Sometimes, when I see rain coming, I like to put my houseplants outside so they can take advantage of that rain as well. I think of it as a treat to them.
1. It Makes Me Smile
I believe one of the number one reasons to like the rain is because it makes me smile inside. I love to see the children laughing and playing in the yard after the cool rain. Not too long ago, I saw a couple of guys sitting at a bus stop in the rain. They were huddled up under the patio trying to keep dry. A big truck zoomed past and water from a puddle slung up on them. At first, it looked serious, but when they looked at each other and burst out in laughter, I learned that it wasn’t as serious as it looked. I bet they went home and told everyone about how a big truck splashed them. When they started laughing, I couldn’t help but to laugh too.
Those are 7 Reasons I like it when it rains. In the rain, it seems that anything goes. I do hate driving in the rain… the roads are slippery and back wheel drive does not help the situation. When it’s raining, I know there are a lot of happy moments, but you still have to be safe and don’t lose your mind. Drive safe and if you don’t think you can drive in the rain, then don’t do it, if you have an option. So, what are some things you like about the rain?

6 Colours And How They Affect Your Mood …

How much thought do you give to choosing colours? Most people would say hardly any, picking their favourite from the selection available, so you might be surprised to learn how much of an effect colours can have on our moods! While colours can be subjective, most have a universal effect, and I was really surprised to learn how much of an impact they can have on our daily lives. Here are my six effects everyone should know about…

1. Black
Black is a very powerful, strong colour. It consumes all other light in the colour spectrum, and is often used to represent strong characters such as Dracula, or witches. Some cultures link black to death and mourning, others to rebirth and life. The strong link? Black’s power. Think about how black is used…black belt, black tie, black market…and that most people dress in black to work. Black gives the feeling of importance, control and strength.

2. White
White is often used to portray innocence and naivety. It is a very pure colour, and is often used in new houses, to make rooms look bigger and brighter. It’s also a very cold colour, though, giving the effect of sterile blandness. Rooms which are painted white often look bigger, but they seem empty and unlived in. White can make us feel pure; or empty.

3. Red
Red is a colour that always evokes strong emotions. It is often associated with passion, love and lust, and this can make it both a sexy and comforting colour. It can also be linked to anger and excitement, and is generally responsible for intense feelings. Consider things people often buy in red…red lingerie and red dresses, and the expressions “painting the town red”, and “seeing red”. Red happens to be my favourite colour, too, which indicates that I live for intensity and feeling alive.

4. Blue
Blue is the most common favourite colour, especially for men. It is a calm colour, and is often described as being sterile, tranquil, calm and serene. Studies have shown that people are more productive in rooms that are painted blue, and that it can sometimes cause feelings of sadness and confusion. Blue is also a colour often used by dieters, as it is the least appetizing colour. Using blue plates and cutlery can limit how much you eat! Showing patients the colour blue has also been proved to lower pulse rate and body temperature.

5. Green
Green is another colour that seems to indicate very different feelings. For some, it indicates nature, and tranquillity. It feels healthy, and pure. It is also often the colour associated with jealousy, and hurt. In the 15th Century, green was used as a fertility symbol, and green rooms are often used to calm nerves, relieve stress and begin healing. Green rooms have even been proved to reduce stomach aches!

6. Orange
Orange is a combination of yellow and red, and is often seen as an energetic, bouncy colour. It is often used to attract attention, such as on road signs and in advertising campaign. A recent study found that participants linked orange with excitement, enthusiasm, and warmth, which makes it a great colour to incorporate into your home. Avoid yellowy-orange, though, as yellow rooms can cause headaches.

Boulevard Of Broken Dreams

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah
Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I walk alone
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...

Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it’s better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together

How long will it be before you can get through your daily routine without feeling the wave of pain sweep over you, without sensing that knot in the pit of your stomach, without dwelling on what went wrong? If these are some of the questions you are asking yourself, you are not alone.

A broken heart can cause such an intense reaction that many of us feel our lives have been completely stripped of meaning. College, fun , hobbies, and friends no longer hold any joy for us. In fact, some even experience physical pain with a tight chest, nervous stomach, or terrible insomnia. Time heals all wounds is what we have all heard over the years, but do you really have to wait for time to heal these wounds? Absolutely not.

You are sitting remembering all the moments you were together .You decide to message. You debate whether to send it or not. You stare and decide to send while your mind tells you to have more respect for yourself. You logically understand that sending the message is not going to make the situation any better – nor will it heal your pain. Therefore you decide to start to live for yourself at least give a try.The scenario above represents one example of a misalignment between your heart and your mind that is a common occurrence. Every decision you make is determined by a combination of your logic and emotion. If these different elements that make you who you are, are not in agreement, you will understandably feel conflicted and make decisions that reflect this conflict.

People may say no one ever died of a broken heart, but when you're suffering from one, it sure doesn't feel that way--at least initially.When relationships go sour, our great loves lost to the confusion of the universe, it's very easy to be caught off guard. Initially we find ourselves blessed with a feeling of freedom, a brand new start, where we can set new rules and reorganize our chaotic lives. A few days may pass as we quietly ignore the itching pain at the back of our mind telling us that something is horribly wrong.

Sadly in time our psyche eventually wonders back to our former love. Our body craves them, our mind wants them back, and a feeling of complete desperation kicks in. For whatever reason, something seems to be missing. We can't necessarily pin point the key attribute that we crave, only that as a package they seemed so unique. How are we to ever live without this person,we think to ourselves.

Once you recognize that getting back together is no longer an option comes the sudden realization that you have some serious mental spring cleaning to do. The problem is, where do you start and where do you put all of this excess emotion. Everyone has their own unique break up procedure. Some may isolate themselves in bed for weeks on end, while others find their comfort in a liquid form or smoke as hard as possible for them. Whatever the case, anything to aid the mission, to keep your mind off the empty hole in your chest.

The argument I want to bring up here is not how to get over someone as quickly as possible but how to get over someone the right way, without resentment and with more understanding. Although this way of thinking is much harder then the quick route, in the end you'll come out of it as a much stronger person. I have found no better inspiration in life then that of one from a broken heart, what better time for getting well acquainted with yourself then that of a time where most of your mental walls are at their weakest.

"To appreciate the highs, one has to understand the ever following lows"

As near impossible as it may seem, you have to dissociate yourself from the situation and try to look at it from a rational point of view. The heart broken tend to over analyze, the good, the bad, and everything in between. Often you can find yourself concentrating on what went wrong, rarely nothing what the other person contributed to end everything. It's easy to individualize everything to make yourself feel like the bad person, but it's definitely a two way street.

Take the proper time out
Make sure you give yourself a proper amount of healing time, otherwise you may be paying for it later. Like walking on a broken leg, your heart needs time to heal as well. Although filling the void with a new person is tempting, it generally leads to disaster.Tell to yourself why to get affected .Live and care for yourself rather than worrying about the whole world

Find a way to express your emotions
Write, draw or doodle, and try find someway to convert your insecurities to something constructive. Writing helps organize the bubbling thoughts in your mind. Arguments and inconsistencies that you'd generally like to harass the people who let you hurt will roam the mental plane until they get a chance to escape in one way or another.

Avoid over analysis
It's going to be tempting to over think everything, but it definitely not recommended.
• Were they lying to me the entire time?
• Will I ever love someone like this again?
• When did they fall out of love with me?"
• When they said they said they would be always there then where did they go?
• Did I impact them, or will I be forgotten?"
No matter what the circumstance, there's always going to be some unanswered questions. The smallest details suddenly seem important, and your mind craves nothing but the truth. You know its is over, but for some reason you want it to be justified. Sadly, lost love doesn't always have a reason, it just happens, and the answer you seek may not exist. Do your best to constructively get your mind off of things.


Seek Closure
After you've dealt with most of your mental recovery its time to get your closure. It's different for every person but this is the key moment. Like a flip of the switch, the pain will be greatly relieved. The realization that things will never be the same again, and that your ready to accept it and move on with your life. It's never definite what will set this change reaction off, but it is necessary for your mind to be at peace.


Accepting Your new reality... Without Resentment
The heartbreak is over, and your ready to step out into the world, what now? Your past was full of great memories, experiences, why put negative feelings towards them just because things didn't work out?
"It is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all."
One should appreciate love for what it was, not for what it is now, even if it can no longer be. The Lies, deception, and miscommunication around the end should not ruin your interpretation of the time that kept you happy.
Let's hope to be able to look back upon the good memories and feel warm, knowing that they are over and will never be again, but to appreciate them none the less for what they were. When you can remember the old times warmly without pining for them you'll know that you've reached a new level of mental enlightenment.