I'm not the type to get my heart broken I'm not the type to get upset and cry Cause I never leave my heart open Never hurts me to say goodbye Relationships don't get deep to me Never got the whole in love thing And someone can say they love me truly But at the time it didn't mean a thing
My mind is gone, I'm spinning round And deep inside, my tears I'll drown I'm losing grip, what's happening I stray from love, this is how I feel This time was different Felt like, I was just a victim And it cut me like a knife When you walked out of my life Now I'm, in this condition And I've, got all the symptoms Of a girl with a broken heart But no matter what you'll never see me cry
Did it happen when we first kissed? Cause it's hurting me to let it go Maybe 'cause we spent so much time And I know that it's no more I should've never let you hold me baby Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart I didn't give to you on purpose Can't figure out how you stole my heart
How did I get here with you, I'll never know? I never meant to let it get so, personal And after all I tried to do, to stay away from loving you I'm broken heart and I can't let you know And I won't let it show You won't see me cry
This time was different Felt like, I was just a victim And it cut me like a knife When you walked out of my life Now I'm, in this condition And I've, got all the symptoms Of a girl with a broken heart But no matter what you'll never see me cry
1st December 2010 Worlds AIDS Day.....RECITATION OF POEM at IUST
Out of the darkness without any test, A heavy burden was laid on our chests. Where this disease came from, no one is sure, All we know is that there is no cure. It takes all lives, not only people who are gay, The human life is the highest price to pay. Young and old are dying all around, Look at the people in your own towns. We cry for help in so many ways, But more lives are being lost every day. There are drugs to ease the pain, They don't work; the government gets the capital gains. Your body, ready to go off at any day, Hoping a cure would be found some way. How many cries will it take to hear? When someone you know has it, and their time is near. It is something that we can no longer ignore, Because it is coming closer, it might be next door. So don't think that you can't get this disease called "AIDS", More people then you think have it, they just won't say. Wake up! We are dying and dropping like flies, Don't wait until the human race is gone, And then ask WHY?
When I get old, I hope you understand and have patience with me In case I break the plate, or spill soup on the table because I’m losing my eyesight, I hope you don’t yell at me. Older people are sensitive, always having selfpity when you yell. When my hearing gets worse and I can’t hear what you’re saying, I hope you don’t call me ‘Deaf!’ Please repeat what you said or write it down.
I’m sorry, my child. I’m getting older. When my knees get weaker, I hope you have the patience to help me get up. Like how I used to help you while you were little, learning how to walk. Please bear with me, when I keep repeating myself like a broken record, I hope you just keep listening to me. Please don’t make fun of me, or get sick of listening to me.
Do you remember when you were little and you wanted a ballon? You repeated yourself over and over until you get what you wanted. Please also pardon my smell. I smell like an old person.Please don’t force me to shower. My body is weak. Old peoople get sick easily when they’re cold. I hope I don’t gross you out.
Do you remember when you were little? I used to chase you around because you didn’t want to shower. I hope you can be patient with me when I’m always cranky. It’s all part of getting old. You’ll understand when you’re older. And if you have spare time, I hope we can talk even for a few minutes. I’m always all by myself all the time, and have no one to talk to. I know you’re busy with work. Even if you’re not interested in my stories, please have time for me.
Do you remember when you were little? I used to listen to your stories about your teddy bear. When the time comes, and I get ill and bedridden, I hope you have the patience to take care of me. I’m sorry if I accidentally wet the bed or make a mess. I hope you have the patience to take care of me during the last few moments of my life. I’m not going to last much longer, anyway. When the time of my death comes, I hope you hold my hand and give me strength to face death.
And don’t worry.. When I finally meet our creator, I will whisper in his ear to bless you. Because you loved your Mom and Dad. Thankyou so much for your care. We love you.
I'm not always as confident as I seem.There are many nights and many days when all I want is to be held. I love being held...Always.
Sometimes I don't want to talk about what is bothering me.Sometimes I just want a hug.Sometimes I just want to lay on my bedroom floor, drown myself in music and cry. Sometimes I just want to leave behind everything. Sometimes I just want to runaway, and never come back. Sometimes I just want to run up to you. Sometimes I just want to slap you so hard. Sometimes I just want to tell you what I really think of you. Sometimes I just want to be alone. Sometimes I just want to eat ice cream and watch sappy romances all day long. Sometimes I just want to escape reality. Sometimes I just want to know how it feels like to have a true person falling in love with your smile. Sometimes I just want to get the hell out of this place. Sometimes I just want to wear and say what I want, without being judged. Sometimes I just want to be perfect in front of your eyes. Sometimes I just want to give up. Sometimes I just want to run. Sometimes I just want to be in your shoes. Sometimes I just want to feel like I’m on top of the world. Sometimes I just want to wish for a better tomorrow. Sometimes I just want to let go. Sometimes I just want to know if you really miss me. But I know that sometimes, you don’t always get what you want and that is when I need someone who will let me cry.
I like when people aren't afraid to show what they're really feeling. I don't like when people run from their true feelings because it doesn't do anyone any good. I wear my heart on my sleeve, but I am not naive. I know what it feels like to be completely broken and I am all too familiar with what it means to be hurt. I know what it's like to see something funny and not laugh. I've been taken advantage of, used, and abused. My feelings have been blatantly disregarded. But I still believe that all people are good at heart and my trust in people has not diminished. To be completely honest, I hope it never does...Ever.
