Sunday, October 31, 2010


When all about you is black with gloom,
And all you feel is pending doom.
When your bones are racked with grim despair
When every breath is a gasp for air.
Keep on going, though you need to grope,
For around the bend is a ray of hope.

A ray of hope is perhaps all that's left,
As your will to live has been bereft.
You've lost it all, it's just no use!
You can end it all, you need no excuse.
But throw away that piece of rope,
And give yourself a chance of hope.

Just give yourself another day,
Brushing aside what your thoughts may say.
This is your life and you can make a new start,
By ignoring the brain - just follow the heart.
Taking baby steps in order to cope,
And minute by minute you'll build on your hope.

Build on your hope, One day at a time,
Though the road be steep and hard to climb.
The hurts of the past - they should be dead.
The fears of the future are all in your head.
Just live in the present and refuse to mope
Your life will sparkle for you are living in hope.

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Think About Others....You will Forget Your Pain

This is not a quote but a series of things that I have come to realize in my so short life.

Love is not pure happiness, you will get sad, you will be angry, you will get scared, you will hate the one you love, maybe not forever. Some aren't ready for it, and give up, while others are true to each other and they survive.

Life will never be easy, no matter where you come from, how much money you have, no matter how good your parents were. Some will have it harder than you. Yet they still survive and keep on.

The world is cruel and dangerous place for everyone, there is no paradise or heaven, this is how it has always been. But most of us see tomorrow, and I cry for those who don't.

Death is something none of us can escape, no matter what God or thing you believe in, we all fear it because it is a great unknown fate. Does it really matter what comes after death, you have a long life ahead of you, why worry about what comes after that.

We all judge each other, for reasons I can't understand, if someone has a problem there will be someone that doesn't know him or her that will judge him or her, think about it, would that person treat him/her badly or drink his or her life away if they were happy. Don't judge others or atleast think before you do.

Just look at why people everywhere are not satisfied with their lives, there are alot of people with dreams, hopes and longings. They want to share love, tears, pain, hatred and happiness.

I read hundreds of posts everyday, I don't understand them all, but I love reading them. I cry, I smile, I laugh. I could read hundreds of books and not find the same emotions that I come across everyday.

I don't know anyone of them, but I see people who want to share wisdom, experiences, broken hearts, death of a loved ones, joy of life everything.
I see inspiration, motivation and creativity.

We share stories, and feelings even though we do not know a thing about eachother.
Now this is a world I dream about.

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Where did my smile go?

What compelled me to write here again.May be more gloominess.Why is it so?
I wanna live.I wanna be happy.Mind my own business.None of it happens.NOBODY can undrstand what I'm going through and what I go through everyday.My own identity haunts me.To see myself in mirror scares me.Nobody cares.Selfish strange people care about their own perspectives.Why I feel I'm only one who considered and understood other's perspective along with mine.
My tears have gone dry and I'm slowly becoming hard and cold inside.I don't know whats going on.I just don't get anything. What I feel I'm not accepted for it.What I don't feel,I'm made to feel and accept that.Don't know how to end this story now.All I can say now is that Life teaches us in every step.THE MOMENT WE START TRUSTING SOMEONE BLINDLY that person breaks you.WHEN YOU EXPECT YOUR SILENCE TO BE UNDERSTOOD people take your words wrong,gestures aren't important even though shown heartily but fake words are appreciated!!
So don't make anyone your life,don't b affected by anyone's absence because when you face darkness it's you all alone who has to face it.I know no one can get me my life back.No one can ever bring that smile that brightened my day back.It has gone and even if I try to smile it hurts deep inside.The fake one I carry everyday along.But I usually ask myself,Where did my smile go?

Where did that smile go?
That small curve that everyone loved
Where did my smile go?
The curve that lit nights

Did it fly away with the wind
Or did it get buried into sands?
Did the spider take it and hid it in his web
Or did someone take it into his lands?

Where did my smile go?
The unique identity that I owned
Did it fall off while trekking
Or did the mountain ghost masticate it?

Did it get dissolved in acids
Or did it vaporise into gas?
Where did my smile go?
The smile I had, all while...
Where did it go?Who took it?

Friday, October 22, 2010

I Like it When it Rains

I like the rain. Why? Well, I can think of reasons I like it when it rains. I am the type who could go out and dance in the rain and not care who’s watching… that’s how much I like it. Well, let’s get started with those 7 reasons…
7. It’s Peaceful
Some people do not believe this, they get scared when it starts to thunder. However, I feel more at peace. I can easily relax when it is raining.
6. Good Reading Weather
I believe the rain makes good reading weather. On those rainy days, I just want to curl up on the couch and read a good book as I listen to the rain hit the roofs.
5. Good Writing Weather
Just as the rain makes good reading weather, it also makes good writing weather. While I am a fast writer, no matter what, I find it much more relaxing to write when it is raining. It’s not just because it cools the place down, because I like the rain, even during the winter months.
4. Makes it Pretty Outside
I also enjoy the beauty of the rain. I believe it is a very pretty thing that nature does. Some of the best pictures are taken in the rain. Not to mention how cool the clouds look during thunderstorms.
3. It Cools the Outside Off
As I said, this isn’t a main reason I like the rain, but that does not mean that I don’t like the reason. I like how the rain comes along and cools the outside off.
2. The Plants Enjoy it
If you look outside after it is raining, the plants look so happy. The plants that are outside enjoy the rain. Sometimes, when I see rain coming, I like to put my houseplants outside so they can take advantage of that rain as well. I think of it as a treat to them.
1. It Makes Me Smile
I believe one of the number one reasons to like the rain is because it makes me smile inside. I love to see the children laughing and playing in the yard after the cool rain. Not too long ago, I saw a couple of guys sitting at a bus stop in the rain. They were huddled up under the patio trying to keep dry. A big truck zoomed past and water from a puddle slung up on them. At first, it looked serious, but when they looked at each other and burst out in laughter, I learned that it wasn’t as serious as it looked. I bet they went home and told everyone about how a big truck splashed them. When they started laughing, I couldn’t help but to laugh too.
Those are 7 Reasons I like it when it rains. In the rain, it seems that anything goes. I do hate driving in the rain… the roads are slippery and back wheel drive does not help the situation. When it’s raining, I know there are a lot of happy moments, but you still have to be safe and don’t lose your mind. Drive safe and if you don’t think you can drive in the rain, then don’t do it, if you have an option. So, what are some things you like about the rain?

6 Colours And How They Affect Your Mood …

How much thought do you give to choosing colours? Most people would say hardly any, picking their favourite from the selection available, so you might be surprised to learn how much of an effect colours can have on our moods! While colours can be subjective, most have a universal effect, and I was really surprised to learn how much of an impact they can have on our daily lives. Here are my six effects everyone should know about…

1. Black
Black is a very powerful, strong colour. It consumes all other light in the colour spectrum, and is often used to represent strong characters such as Dracula, or witches. Some cultures link black to death and mourning, others to rebirth and life. The strong link? Black’s power. Think about how black is used…black belt, black tie, black market…and that most people dress in black to work. Black gives the feeling of importance, control and strength.

2. White
White is often used to portray innocence and naivety. It is a very pure colour, and is often used in new houses, to make rooms look bigger and brighter. It’s also a very cold colour, though, giving the effect of sterile blandness. Rooms which are painted white often look bigger, but they seem empty and unlived in. White can make us feel pure; or empty.

3. Red
Red is a colour that always evokes strong emotions. It is often associated with passion, love and lust, and this can make it both a sexy and comforting colour. It can also be linked to anger and excitement, and is generally responsible for intense feelings. Consider things people often buy in red…red lingerie and red dresses, and the expressions “painting the town red”, and “seeing red”. Red happens to be my favourite colour, too, which indicates that I live for intensity and feeling alive.

4. Blue
Blue is the most common favourite colour, especially for men. It is a calm colour, and is often described as being sterile, tranquil, calm and serene. Studies have shown that people are more productive in rooms that are painted blue, and that it can sometimes cause feelings of sadness and confusion. Blue is also a colour often used by dieters, as it is the least appetizing colour. Using blue plates and cutlery can limit how much you eat! Showing patients the colour blue has also been proved to lower pulse rate and body temperature.

5. Green
Green is another colour that seems to indicate very different feelings. For some, it indicates nature, and tranquillity. It feels healthy, and pure. It is also often the colour associated with jealousy, and hurt. In the 15th Century, green was used as a fertility symbol, and green rooms are often used to calm nerves, relieve stress and begin healing. Green rooms have even been proved to reduce stomach aches!

6. Orange
Orange is a combination of yellow and red, and is often seen as an energetic, bouncy colour. It is often used to attract attention, such as on road signs and in advertising campaign. A recent study found that participants linked orange with excitement, enthusiasm, and warmth, which makes it a great colour to incorporate into your home. Avoid yellowy-orange, though, as yellow rooms can cause headaches.

Boulevard Of Broken Dreams

I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah
Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I walk alone
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...

Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it’s better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together

How long will it be before you can get through your daily routine without feeling the wave of pain sweep over you, without sensing that knot in the pit of your stomach, without dwelling on what went wrong? If these are some of the questions you are asking yourself, you are not alone.

A broken heart can cause such an intense reaction that many of us feel our lives have been completely stripped of meaning. College, fun , hobbies, and friends no longer hold any joy for us. In fact, some even experience physical pain with a tight chest, nervous stomach, or terrible insomnia. Time heals all wounds is what we have all heard over the years, but do you really have to wait for time to heal these wounds? Absolutely not.

You are sitting remembering all the moments you were together .You decide to message. You debate whether to send it or not. You stare and decide to send while your mind tells you to have more respect for yourself. You logically understand that sending the message is not going to make the situation any better – nor will it heal your pain. Therefore you decide to start to live for yourself at least give a try.The scenario above represents one example of a misalignment between your heart and your mind that is a common occurrence. Every decision you make is determined by a combination of your logic and emotion. If these different elements that make you who you are, are not in agreement, you will understandably feel conflicted and make decisions that reflect this conflict.

People may say no one ever died of a broken heart, but when you're suffering from one, it sure doesn't feel that way--at least initially.When relationships go sour, our great loves lost to the confusion of the universe, it's very easy to be caught off guard. Initially we find ourselves blessed with a feeling of freedom, a brand new start, where we can set new rules and reorganize our chaotic lives. A few days may pass as we quietly ignore the itching pain at the back of our mind telling us that something is horribly wrong.

Sadly in time our psyche eventually wonders back to our former love. Our body craves them, our mind wants them back, and a feeling of complete desperation kicks in. For whatever reason, something seems to be missing. We can't necessarily pin point the key attribute that we crave, only that as a package they seemed so unique. How are we to ever live without this person,we think to ourselves.

Once you recognize that getting back together is no longer an option comes the sudden realization that you have some serious mental spring cleaning to do. The problem is, where do you start and where do you put all of this excess emotion. Everyone has their own unique break up procedure. Some may isolate themselves in bed for weeks on end, while others find their comfort in a liquid form or smoke as hard as possible for them. Whatever the case, anything to aid the mission, to keep your mind off the empty hole in your chest.

The argument I want to bring up here is not how to get over someone as quickly as possible but how to get over someone the right way, without resentment and with more understanding. Although this way of thinking is much harder then the quick route, in the end you'll come out of it as a much stronger person. I have found no better inspiration in life then that of one from a broken heart, what better time for getting well acquainted with yourself then that of a time where most of your mental walls are at their weakest.

"To appreciate the highs, one has to understand the ever following lows"

As near impossible as it may seem, you have to dissociate yourself from the situation and try to look at it from a rational point of view. The heart broken tend to over analyze, the good, the bad, and everything in between. Often you can find yourself concentrating on what went wrong, rarely nothing what the other person contributed to end everything. It's easy to individualize everything to make yourself feel like the bad person, but it's definitely a two way street.

Take the proper time out
Make sure you give yourself a proper amount of healing time, otherwise you may be paying for it later. Like walking on a broken leg, your heart needs time to heal as well. Although filling the void with a new person is tempting, it generally leads to disaster.Tell to yourself why to get affected .Live and care for yourself rather than worrying about the whole world

Find a way to express your emotions
Write, draw or doodle, and try find someway to convert your insecurities to something constructive. Writing helps organize the bubbling thoughts in your mind. Arguments and inconsistencies that you'd generally like to harass the people who let you hurt will roam the mental plane until they get a chance to escape in one way or another.

Avoid over analysis
It's going to be tempting to over think everything, but it definitely not recommended.
• Were they lying to me the entire time?
• Will I ever love someone like this again?
• When did they fall out of love with me?"
• When they said they said they would be always there then where did they go?
• Did I impact them, or will I be forgotten?"
No matter what the circumstance, there's always going to be some unanswered questions. The smallest details suddenly seem important, and your mind craves nothing but the truth. You know its is over, but for some reason you want it to be justified. Sadly, lost love doesn't always have a reason, it just happens, and the answer you seek may not exist. Do your best to constructively get your mind off of things.

Seek Closure
After you've dealt with most of your mental recovery its time to get your closure. It's different for every person but this is the key moment. Like a flip of the switch, the pain will be greatly relieved. The realization that things will never be the same again, and that your ready to accept it and move on with your life. It's never definite what will set this change reaction off, but it is necessary for your mind to be at peace.

Accepting Your new reality... Without Resentment
The heartbreak is over, and your ready to step out into the world, what now? Your past was full of great memories, experiences, why put negative feelings towards them just because things didn't work out?
"It is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all."
One should appreciate love for what it was, not for what it is now, even if it can no longer be. The Lies, deception, and miscommunication around the end should not ruin your interpretation of the time that kept you happy.
Let's hope to be able to look back upon the good memories and feel warm, knowing that they are over and will never be again, but to appreciate them none the less for what they were. When you can remember the old times warmly without pining for them you'll know that you've reached a new level of mental enlightenment.

My happy moments are for everyone but my sad time is for me ONLY!


When tough situations arrive in your life don’t say "why me" but rather say "yeah sweetie...try me"......but you know what guys nowadays I hardly follow this funda of mine......I’m such a crazy girl.....but the truth is that sometimes it’s really difficult to ignore the problems and go ahead in life.....we talk a lot and its really very easy to give advices to others....but when it comes to ourselves....we get mad.....we don’t even care about all those advices we had given others when they were facing the same problems.....when they were going through the same dilemma........

What to say.....life is like this......sometimes it’s easy but sometimes it’s really tough.......sometimes it is fun but sometimes it gets really serious.......when we just can’t do anything but rather sit with hapless helplessness and deep frustration.....sometimes it gets lighted up with all immense satisfaction, contentment and happiness and we REALLY say with all true faith and feelings that "LIFE IS GREAT BUDDY !!!".......but when it comes to worriment, predicament and quandary......it is when we REALISE that life is really very complicated.....and we just can’t simply and so easily understand it.........Life never stops...Life goes on it never ends...Eyes of stone observe the trends...They never say forever gaze

So all we can do is that face both all the soft and hard blows of life....because these are the moments when you learn new things.....new lessons.....and slowly and gradually start understanding life.....and by the time we have understood it......we are already dead....buried beneath the soft earth...!!!.......so I think it’s better if we just don’t try to understand or know what is life...why and how we landed into the world of sufferings ..all I can say is that it’s a "FOUR LETTER WORD"....LIFE

Dedicated To All Those Who Lost Their LOVE

So many words for the broken heart
It's hard to see in the crimson love
So hard to breathe
Walk with me and maybe

Nights of light so soon become
Wild and free I can feel the sun
Our every wish will be done
They tell me

Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with?
Tell me why I can't be there where you are
There's something missin' in my heart

Life goes on as it never ends
Eyes of stone observe the trends
They never say forever gaze

If only guilty roads to an endless love
(Endless love)
There's no control, are you with me now?
Your every wish will be done, they tell me

Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with?
Tell me why I can't be there where you are
There's something missin' in my heart

There's no where to run, I have no place to go
Surrender my heart, body and soul
How can it be you're asking me to feel
Things you never show

You are missing in my heart
Tell me why I can't be there where you are

Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with?
Tell me why I can't be there where you are
There's something missin' in my heart

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Ubi ...I miss You so much :(

I Miss you..I Miss the loud music coming from your Room,I Miss the warmth of knowing that you are just a call away,I Miss the way we fought & played,I Miss seeing your big bright smile,I Miss getting kicked out of your room, I Miss seeing u here and there

You have been there for me through it all ...You are alwayz there to catch me when I start to take a fall..You protected me from the world that left the bruises on your face,all the tears and scrapes I wish I could erase..When my life fell apart you patched things up you took care of my heart when times got rough..

And today when you are facing the tough times you may think I dont care because I never show it but I will always be here and I hope you know it...Remember I will be here through and through.You’re a part of me, and I can’t let go. I want you to know that my heart will always beat for you. Your pain is my own, and I wish you find happiness and peace of mind – for my peace of mind too. Because my heart hurts that yours is broken. I watch you twist and turn and I feel knotted up inside. I see you blink back tears, and my own eyes sting. I smile when you smile, brother.Because I do care and I love you.
Remember I will alwayz care just as much as you do......love ya so much ...I miss you every time.Hope to see you soon after 6 long years.I wish time flies and we get to be together again.

Wednesday, October 20, 2010

Wow !!! Just loved it

Unusual Hobby it might be-Cloud Watching

Have you ever thought what life would be without clouds? There would be no rain and life would be dull. Clouds not only bring rainfall to our lands but also add beauty to the sky.

Clouds may look like animals, people, trees, flowers or any other object. Cloud Watching really help relieve stress in our lives.This is what we did today sitting under the shadow of the tree after giving the hectic viva.I have always found interesting shapes in clouds. When I was a kid I would grab a blanket and lie underneath the heavens and stare for hours at the sky.Today gave a thought to the old days hobby and began to look in the sky and analyze the clouds emerging from behind the mountains with my friends.Is it a dog? Is it a rabbit? Is it a king sitting on his throne, or a monkey eating an apple?Wow simply awesome.

Clouds, soft, puffy seemingly far away.I am most certain that there have been quite a number of posts stating animal shapes, odd shapes.. First of all, let me state that I have seen quite a few odd clouds recently. The one that really stands out is the one I encountered today. I looked up to my left and there it was as plain as day, an X in the midst of a dark cloud. I wish that I had a camera.There it was, a perfectly shaped cloud. All I could do was stare and smile for the beauty of it.

Cloud watching is a fun hobby .If you lie down on your terrace or sit in an open surrounding or simply peep through your window and watch clouds, your body gets recharged and you get a chance to relax as well. If you take it up as a hobby, you will never be tired of watching clouds of various shapes and colors. And what’s the best reason to take up cloud watching as a hobby! It’s free. You do not need any money to pursue this hobby;)

Three types of clouds can be viewed – cumulus, cumulonimbus and cirrus.
Cumulus is a fluffy cloud and very easy to spot. They are low level clouds indicating fair weather. Cumulonimbus are anvil topped clouds bringing thunder and rain while cirrus is usually the highest cloud of all and made entirely of ice crystals.

Pick up your phone and just click the wonderful shapes formed above you in the blue background.Cloud watching also helps you to connect with nature. Cloud watching is one hobby which will make you go out in the open and breathe some fresh air as well. So just look up and up!

Tuesday, October 19, 2010


I know its kinda rude to just start my post with SHUT UP.But,she's just so irritating!!

She makes me almost murder her in my thoughts.I wonder why is she so free to get involved in everyone else life.I wonder why is she bothered about one whom she ones blamed,cursed without knowing the real story.I feel if you don't know about a person you are no one to judge about him/her.If you point towards anyone the three fingers are pointing back towards you...Give it a try.

Harsh words,Harsh feelings,blames and what not.This is what she once used for me and I was so stupid not to revolt back not because I was at fault and preferred to stay mum but because I was not taught to be like you...INHUMAN,SELFISH,CRUEL,RUDE.

A person interprets everything as per his/her mind.So there is no issue if she took things wrong and formed a cheap image about me or any one else in picture.Why to blame her for this its her thinking that took that form and I am least bothered about it.

I cant stand her and I really pity her.Right now, right here. I wish that Allah enlightens her mind and heart so that what she did to me she doesn't do it to any one else. Words do hurt more than actions.Today if she is blamed for anything why is she upset or angry at it.It is better if she realizes what she did and how much pain she gave.Its is better to understand now how much is one hurt if she/he is blamed for none of his/her fault.

Still, FORGIVE & FORGET is what is advised by everyone....Forgive is so nooo way
To me, forget is soo goood enough for her.

Lastly, I wanna say that I am really sorry for my rudeness because I really think that my blog was a good place to shout out all my feelings.

Saturday, October 16, 2010

Thanks Mehvish,Siyam,Neha,Najma

When we first talked to each other
I knew we would always be friends.
Our friendship has kept on growing
And I'll be here for you to the end.

You listen when I have a problem
And help dry the tears from my face.
You take away my sorrow
And put happiness in its place.

We can't forget the fun we've had
Laughing 'til our faces turn blue.
Talking of things only we find funny
People think we're insane-If they only knew!

I guess this is my way of saying thanks
For catching me when I fall.
Thanks once again for being such good friends
And being here with me through it all.

Know Your Girl

When a GIRL is quiet,
Millions of things are running in her mind
When a GIRL is not arguing,
She is thinking deeply
When a GIRL looks at u with eyes full of
She is wondering how long you will be
When a GIRL answers "i'm fine" after a
few seconds,
She is not at all fine
When a GIRL stares at you,
She is wondering why you are lying
When a GIRL lays on your chest,
She is wishing for you to be hers forever
When a GIRL calls you everyday,
She is seeking for your attention
When a GIRL sms's u everyday,
She wants you to reply at least once
When a GIRL says I love you,
She means it
When a GIRL says that she can't live
without you,
She has made up her mind that you are
her future
When a GIRL says "i miss you",
No one in this world can miss you more
than that.

Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't?

Did you ever fall for someone you know you shouldn't?
Try hard to fight your feelings, but you just couldn't?

You fall deeper with each passing day,
But try to hide it in every possible way.
He's only a friend, and nothing else--
That's the lie you keeping telling yourself.
You keep on saying he's just a bud,
But deep inside, you're falling in love.
You get so giddy when you meet his eyes,
But keep reminding yourself it isn't right.
A simple glance turns into a stare,
But you pretned that you don't care.
It's "not right" for you two to be.
Is that why you hide it so no one can see?
But how long will you pretend?
Keep lying that he's just a friend?
Perhaps your feelings you can never show.
Perhaps it's "wrong" for him to know.
Your friendship can't be risked over this,
So being his girl is an impossible wish...
This is all I did but still was blamed for it

9 Things I Hate About Everyone

1. People who point at their wrist asking for the time... I know where my watch is pal, where the hell is yours? Do I point at my crotch when I ask where the toilet is?

2. People who are willing to get off their a** to search the entire room for the TV remote because they refuse to walk to the TV and change the channel manually.

3. When people say "Oh you just want to have your cake and eat it too". Damn Right! What good is cake if you can't eat it?

4. When people say "it's always the last place you look". Of course it is. Why the hell would you keep looking after you've found it? Do people do this? Who and where are they?

5. When people ask you know what?How the hell am I supposed to know what are they gonna talk about.

6. People who ask "Can I ask you a question?"... Didn't give me a choice there, did ya sunshine?

7. When something is 'new and improved'. Which is it? If it's new, then there has never been anything before it. If it's an improvement, then there must have been something before it, couldn't be new.

8. When people say "life is short". What the hell??? Life is the longest damn thing anyone ever does!!! What can you do thats longer?

9. When you are waiting for the bus and someone asks "Has the bus come yet?" If the bus came, would I be standing here???

I Love You Mama

When there's no more strength left & all i feel is weakening of my soul, I just hold you tight and I'm strong again.
When there's no more colours and all I'm seeing fade in black and white, I just look in your eyes and I see the rainbow again.
When there's no more laughter and music doesn't seem right,I just lay there in your shoulder and ponder the beating of your heart that sounds like a heaven's call.
When there's no more sunshine, the rain never stops and the world becomes so cold,I run to your side and feel safe with your warm embraces.
When everything turns into darkness and crippling fears fill my emotion,
doubts are everywhere and people dont seem to care,I just call your name and there I'm alive again...

Friday, October 15, 2010

Why are people so two faced?

I hate two faced people "The DIPLOMATS" , It's hard to decide which face to slap first.

We go through life meeting lots of people. Some make you happy, some make you smile, some can be counted and then there are some whom you would rather not have ever met. There are lots of reasons that would make you want to avoid meeting certain people like they are mean or evil. Mainly though I am talking about personality types which are difficult to deal with and just better to be avoided all together. Sometimes it takes some time before we realize a person we know is on the bad list. Some of us take longer than others to connect the dots.

Like the two faces of coin we come across the double faced people in our lives.They are nice to you and then turn around and say the worse things ever about. We all are polite to most people and might be inclined to say mean things when we are with people whom we trust but such people usually do this all the time and have another agenda.

Just by observing them you can find them, they say they hate someone and then they turn around and are super nice to them. You think they are best friends with someone else and then they turn around and gossip about them. Some two faced people are smart and do these things subtly but if you concentrate you can usually catch them red handed.

First of all you have to understand that you are not immune to them, just because they act like they respect you and swear they would never gossip about you don’t beleive them. The best way to deal with them is to stay away from them. The problem is that sometimes you might not have that option. Once you have been back stabbed or betrayed,you always have the option of confrontation, people who feel the need to act that way are usually cowards and can be scared off by just telling them that you know what they’re doing, of course they will deny but it will stop them for some time.

I have now after suffering with being so close to some of them found that the best way is to not tell them anything, not to get close and to keep all conversations to a minimum of small talk. Never ever go down to their level and do what they usually have a habit to do. Avoid private time with them if you can too, be cordial and polite but don’t get sucked into the little soap operas that seem to always unfold around them. Stay away from situations where they gossip and make it clear that you are nice enough to deal with everyone. If you can’t stay away ignore them and never agree with them or offer your opinion on someone else or they will turn around, twist your words and use them against you somehow, they are double crossers by definition.

After coming across some of them,the ones that were once so close and dear to me that i still sometimes feel the same love and respect for them but I guess that is me not them(like a chameleon),one faced the same me who never changed or will change being myself or the true self.It makes me wonder sometimes as to why are they like that?It really annoys me and I never really understand how they are like that.

I have messed up my life being with the wrong ones.They were talking to me and being openly friendly the whole time to my face. It just unnerves me that people can live with being this way. I am a very honest and sincere and have been true to everyone in my life.I may say I am not perfect but I'm not rude,cruel and diplomat like them and if I have an issue with someone I will prefer to tell them.We have to accept that we are all hypocites to some degree. It is only natural for everyone to put their own interests first. We must trust others in order to survive but that trust must be tempered with good judgement. Often our expectations of others is not realistic and we end up hurt. So it is better if we accept the least and I would appreciate if even others try to be honest with me about how she feels instead of putting on a major front that she/he likes me, cares for me and wants me involved in her life...blah blah..

If they are not happy with true face, (who they trully are) they need not keep putting on masks, and changing to conform to those around them at the moment, living a life of charades and those who are in their lives are simply their audience.It makes them feel that they are a bigger person....But you know that you are the biggest person there....people are so two-faced because they think they are something if they are talking about someone else.A lot of people do it because they are ashamed of their sad, sorry lives and think it's better to focus on someone else's life to keep from touching the subject of their own life.I don't worry about it anymore because I have come across many downs and no ups since a few months.

Even if they are among your family or are important parts of your family? It shouldn't matter to you anymore.In my case it was someone I dearly loved and cared,a person close to heart and a friend not only a friend but someone whom I considered so important in my life that I don't have even words to describe her, to kill me.Best thing I did was just ignored them as far as I can and show them I am not bothered.I don't class him as part of my family and to be honest, I don't miss him anymore.

It is better for everyone of us in this dilemma to just ignore them. Whatever they've to say about you it hardly should affect you as far as you know yourself and trust yourself and have strong faith and belief in ALLAH.Next time they talk to you,act as if you know nothing and don't again be fooled by them and believe them.Try and sort of, prove them wrong even there is no need to do so just Trust Yourself and care for those who deserve your love not for them who snatched your life from you.Remember you can't ever get back what you lost and they were the ones who were responsible for it.

I hope you understand what I'm trying to say.May be because we live in a world where we are taught from an early age to fear the truth and embrace the lies.All I can say is that
Do not allow the lies and filth that spew from the mouths of the uneducated and cruel garner your spirit,allow no pain from those that are of mean and devious mind. Feel only pity and contempt for them .In this way they will be diminished and vanquished.

Heed only those that have the honesty to use a frontal attack or are true otherwise,the others are beneath contempt and are of no consequence.

Tuesday, October 12, 2010


Tears run down from my eyes, they are killing me without any mercy at all. I can't stop thinking about "you".Every moment, song, reminds me of you. I feel so incomplete and it hurts me so much to know that after all the promises and the cries, after everything you just moved on so easly. I don't blame you.Who could have stayed??. I blame you for not caring, for breaking millions of promises and for becoming the man i now hate!. My hate for you is just one more reminder that i once loved you will all my heart.

Dear self:

I ask you for forgiveness, I've put you through a lot pain and suffer lately, apparently you are the only one whom i can trust now!. You are the one that has to care!. What are we going to do with this usless life of mines? Will i always be divided? Will a part of me always belong to him?, so many questions left unanswered, so many tears frozen inside, so much regret for just one mortal life

You Said You'll always be there...Didn't You?

The day i met you,
I thought it to be the BEST day
When i saw you in my eyes,
I thought that you were the one,

But i guess i was wrong,
You hurt me,
You killed me inside,
You gave me an insulting death

I don't know how but you did,
You cheated,
You even lied to my face,
When you were alone,
I was always there,
Wasn't I?

But when i needed you,
You were never there,
I loved you so much,
but did you love me?

It hurts to look at you now,
I cant even look you in the eye,
You just didn't understand,
That you meant so much to me ..

Love is a Name Of Sacrifice

I will live a life of sorrow
so you can be happy tomorrow
all your pains will become mine
the pains you had in your past times

Might as well be my fault,upon ending
still trying to consume the words you are sending
I needed you the most when I was all Alone
But you preferred to stay away and i took it
Since your happy,i'll replace you with a knife

My life is going to change since you've gone away
words are clustered together,never will i say
feels i am left alone forever
when your gone,my mind does nothing but roam

I see you in my eyes, i cannot belive your smile
I see you,as i lay upon tiles
my sacrifice of love is you
It is one worthy and true ..

Memories Play a Confusing Role

You left me not too long ago
And yet it seems like forever,
I reminisce the day you left all this time
Because I was right there beside you..

I can't seem to get over the feelings I had,
At that very moment I felt so alone,
It grew cold in the room
That I lost all feelings and sense..

All I had was pure silence and disbelief,
I saw people moving towards you all around me
And yet I couldn't move a step towards you,
I couldn't distinguish my emotions
Because I wasn't sure of them..

I felt soo much anger and sadness, but I couldn't cry
At that moment I wasn't sure what was wrong,
And now with passing time it all comes back to me
Every tear I held in falls, and now I can't seem to stop..

I've realized how much I missed you
And how much I've needed you here
But there is no way for me to reach out for your touch.
I feel so alone right now,
That I just wish you could take me with..

One Day You’ll Also Cry For Me

Do you remember all the times
When you would come to me in tears
Do you remember all the silly rhymes
I would say to hear your laughter cheer

Did you not love me
The way that I loved you,
Could you just not see
Didn’t you have just one clue

So now that I’ve come to grips
I simply must say,
When you cry do not expect my lips
To kiss the pain away

When your sad and blue
Don’t turn to look behind,
For I will no longer be there behind you
To make the sun come out and shine

I have but one last thing to say
And these are the words that will let it be,
Let it be what it was from the very first day,
When your tears are falling,Now Don’t Cry For Me

Why Can't I Forget You

It may be easy to look around our world today and see the appearance of chaos, difficulty and strife. Yet, when we come from an open heart, we can also see our opportunity to love all things into balance, joy, harmony and peace. This planet does not need more visions of desperation, fear, doubt and hate - it requires an abundance of love, especially unconditional love, to heal and restore the beauty contained in every moment. This becomes the easier path once we take the first step and begin to share our love.

When we bring unconditional love back into our personal, professional, community and family lives, we begin the journey of restoring wholeness and happiness to our planetary adventure. Of course it takes determined effort on our part as the old ways of being are quick to return in our mind. However, this effort to love is rewarded with a new perspective on everything and all life benefits as a result.

Can you forget your first love?

That first look, that shy smile and that gentle first touch...do these emotions trigger off nostalgia in you? While your first love maybe lost in time, somewhere within your heart, the memories of your first love still linger on. Whether or not you've moved on in life, whether you've found love once again, does your first love still make you emotional. What is it about your first love that makes it almost impossible for you to get over the cherished moments? Are our first love experiences truly 'unforgettable'? Or is merely a choice to be embroiled in our past that keeps us revisiting our memories?

First will always remain first,that feeling is the purest one.It is just near impossible thing to forget one's first love.No matter how hard you try and how much you control yourself at the end of the day the sweet memories and golden moments will come in front of your eyes when you are in pensive mood.You can forget your first love even you can forget anything,only thing I know "Things which come in use very rarely you can easily forget" If you are with your first LOVE you never forget or if you are with your LOVE which is not First you can forget...So simple...so natural... so practical.Well in todays world there is nothing called love,now it has become a materlistic life, no one has time for a true love. So there is nothing called as first love or last love, because love is an experience and makes a person stronger by the day whether he or she finds a true love.

Love is patient, love is kind. It does not envy, it does not boast, it is not proud. It is not rude, it is not self-seeking, it is not easily angered, it keeps no record of wrongs. Love does not delight in evil but rejoices with the truth. It always protects,always respects, always trusts, always hopes, always perseveres. Love never fails.

Love is best seen as devotion and action, not an emotion. Love is not exclusively based on how we feel. Certainly our emotions are involved, but they cannot be our only criteria for love. True devotion will always lead to action—true love.Was our love so weak that we lost it forever?You left me shattered,my fault was my unconditional love for you.

Love, What This Word Stand For Us, Or Why.We Always Care For This Word.The Person Who Gave Us Love and Can't Imagine Our Life Without That Person, But All Made Me Think,Why Me Need This, When Love Left Me Always And My Pain Stood With Me Always.Care For Them Who Can Give You Some Thing,Not For Those Who Snatch Every Thing From You.

I Know I Can Write My Emotions Any Time,Any Where, When Ever I Want, From Where I Want, But Some Times Writing Doesn't Work Either.You Never Saw The Feeling WHich I Have When I Wrote All This:(

I Actually Loved You But You Didn't Realize

Slowly You Become A Memory
And Start To Fade Away
As Each Week That Passes By
I'm Starting To Feel OK

I Cared About You Dearly
I Treated You Like Gold
I Waited For The Same
But Was Left Out In The Cold

You Were Mean And Selfish
You Treated Me Like Dirt
You Dug Deeper And Deeper
Just To Get Me Hurt

After Everything You Did
The Pain ,The Hurt You Caused
You Almost Left Me Ruined
You Did Everything Bad To Me
But Still
You Will Always Remain A Memory
Never Forget I Actually Loved You!