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Friday, December 31, 2010

Welcome 2011 Goodbye 2010


Looks like I’m the only one who’s not welcoming the new year but I’m glad 2010 has passed. It’s not my best year so far. I’ve had better years. In fact, I had so many heartaches and down moments during the year. No doubt, I had a few achievements like learning life lessons, luckily passed my exams too but my sadness overshadowed everything else and the reason of that sadness being?

OK, there’s no particular event that I can pinpoint to, but the feeling just accumulated, that in the end resulted in an UNFATHOMABLE BLACK HOLE in my heart…

Regardless, life is about being thankful and grateful for what we have. I can’t compare with people who’s happier, or healthier, or wealthier, but I need to compare with people who are less fortunate than myself.

So, I want to be more positive, and also try to make myself happier. So far, it’s been hard to be happy but I think I’m improving day by day. It’s a good sign approaching the new year.

Afterall Life is not wat it looks to be.We love things as if they are real and meaningful and most of all,something that will bring contentment to our lives.Life is illusion and deception.Its like a beautiful charming jewel,we move to pick it up but we realize they are the teeth of an ugly serpent..Lets not deceive ourselves..Tomorow never comes so let’s not dwell on it. Let’s continue work and pray for the best in 2011…Wish me luck.

First Snowfall In Kashmir - 30/12/2010

HAPPY SNOWFALL

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Kashmir witnesses its First & Last Snowfall of the year 2010





Islamic University Of Science & Technology






The Frosty Bus Window


Sunday, December 26, 2010

For Those In LOVE

Awwwwwwwwww....So Cute



Remember when I was young and so were you
and time stood still and love was all we knew
You were the first, so was I
We made love and then you cried
Remember when

Remember when we vowed the vows
and walked the walk
Gave our hearts, made the start, it was hard
We lived and learned, life threw curves
There was joy, there was hurt
Remember when

Remember when old ones died and new were born
And life was changed, disassembled, rearranged
We came together, fell apart
And broke each other's hearts
Remember when

Remember when the sound of little feet
was the music
We danced to week to week
Brought back the love, we found trust
Vowed we'd never give it up
Remember when

Remember when thirty seemed so old
Now lookn' back it's just a steppin' stone
To where we are,
Where we've been
Said we'd do it all again
Remember when
Remember when we said when we turned gray
When the children grow up and move away
We won't be sad, we'll be glad
For all the life we've had
And we'll remember when

Friday, December 24, 2010

Is Your Heart Broken?



It may be many a times,many things,many events and many people may have broken your heart.At that time you may feel a lot of pain,it may become unbearable and you may close your eyes just to tell yourself "Why me? WHY me?"

You may smile,which in fact are your tears.
You may tell,I am fine whch infact would be your latest lie!

Your heart is empty but wounds have made it scary,unpredictable and broken into a million pieces and worse still ..no one knows!
But dear this is the time when Allah can bless you.Your heart is empty and He may fill it with His guidance and His love and no LOVE is greater than Almighty's.

Just remember He knows ,He just knows whats happening to you.Allah knows everything.He is the Lord of hearts.He guides it and grants peace.For every single painful moment He forgives our sins.This is His promise.But its upto us to realize that this world cannot be faithful.It can never let you be happy.

Broken hearts are like earth-soft,torn into pieces nothing to take for itself,everythng for others.Rain comes,it becomes all the more beautiful and fresh.Such is the guidance of Allah for broken hearts.Only tender hearts learn how beautiful loving Allah is!

However,the heart must be presented with guidance and protected from hypocrisy and doubts.The Prophet(SAW) warned against their hardening!
For their are stones tat break into pieces and from whch flow rivers but there are hearts that undrstand nothing because they are dead and cant receive guidance.

A good way to keep the heart alive is remember death ,think about it for sometime.Remember Allah and shed tears in His remembrance.For tears are a characteristic of the pious heart.Only pious nd blessd hearts produce these pearls!

Rabbana La Tuzig Qulubuna Baida Iz Hadaytana
Our Lord! Let not our hearts deviate after you have guided them
Ameen...

Monday, December 20, 2010

What Hurts The Most



I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let them out
I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while
Even though going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm ok
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losing you everywhere I go
But I'm doin' It
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still Harder
Getting up, getting dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And having so much to say
And watching you walk away
And never knowing
What could have been
And not seeing that loving you
Is what I was trying to do

Not seeing that loving you
That's what I was trying to do

Sunday, December 19, 2010

Our love is like the wind. I can't see it, but I can feel.

I don't know how exactly to put all my feelings into words right now.How to laugh so loudly to vent out the cry choked in my throat.Want to say so many things but avoiding even the thought.To explain but not finding the right words even to console the wounded heart.To be with the ones I let go.To keep my eyes open so that the closed eyes don't picture the images,the moments captured in mind and heart for a lifetime.




There's a song that's inside of my soul
it's the one that I've tried to write over and over again
I'm awake in the infinite cold
but you sing to me over and over and over again

So I lay my head back down
and I lift my hands and pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

Sing to me the song of the stars
of your galaxy dancing and laughing and laughing again
when it feels like my dreams are so far
sing to me of the plans that you have for me over again

I give you my destiny
I'm giving you all of me
I want your symphony
singing in all that I am
at the top of my lungs
I'm giving it up

So I lay my head back down
and I lift my hands and pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I pray to be only yours
I know now you're my only hope

Friday, December 17, 2010

A New Me


Have you ever had that feeling of being unwanted?You have no idea how tough life can be.How many people are going to hurt you?People say you got to be strong, but is it that easy?

It just keeps coming back.Being hurt again and again.It hurts so badly.I just wish this could’ve never happened.I guess I’m going to be punished all through my life. I’ve made mistakes to trust and love wrong ones.It’s not so easy to figure it out why was I fooled.I just wish things could be different.Stop for once.Let me be who I used to be.I miss myself.The old pictures helps me to recognize how I used to be.No one helps you out of this you yourself have to.So it’s better to be alone nobody can hurt you then.

Dreams don’t come true.Life doesn't seem to be as your perceptions and wishes.Come on let’s be honest.I’m tired of pretending.I’m tired of lies.I’m tired of everything that's going on.I’m tired of crying.I’m just…tired.

Don’t you see how hard it is?How difficult it is to make a choice. To just start again, to pretend nothing has ever happened. In reality everything’s wrong. Fairy tales are just lies. And now I feel so stupid and mad at myself.

Mad for believing.Upset for I tried to be strong but fail.It’s like a never-ending battle where nobody is on my side.I feel lost and lonely.I used to think everything was all right.Everything was under control,I felt safe. Now that I’ve opened my eyes, I can see clearly.

I thought miracles exist.I could say it’s going to be okay, but deep inside I knew it won’t. Maybe I’m not good enough. I know I’m just another person here. Probably I’m not worth it. I look at my own reflection and I don’t like what I see.I hate the change I've undergone. I hate the new me.

I’m sick of fake people.The ones who broke me.

Empty Song



Ohh!

The feeling of the heart when empty and desolate.
How one comes then is gone to a change of a wanton new.

The past is only a memory changed by the distance of that time.
With the distance of the miles and the want gone from the heart.

How the heat of the Summer drove one to new hieghts,
Of first's and flirts and of a yearning in ones soul.
Of chats and talks of discreet and long lost words.
Of forever and never and ever so much more.

Inspiration comes from the passion that is deep inside me.
Whether good or bad the torment can rest without my words,
And the timelessness of Fall drives the passion deeper in,

Words that were said and now are waining from the mind
The words don't mean the same when one sided so it seems.
Of luv and of friends and freindship and of love,
What was , what is , and what may never be.

Yet deep inside the dream I must forever see,
That yes the distance just proves to much , way too much for me.
And when in jest the miles were made from me yet greater still
At that time I knew a heart was sent towards another

I can see the true distance was towards another's sill
And looking out my window certain truth's have not been told
The evidence of another when ours was left aside
The timing of the leaving of an entering that coincides.

When the newness of the yearning that once was there is gone,
What is left for each and every one but to hear the empty song.

Why Not Try It


In order to find love I offer you my suggestion

1.Turn off your brain and let your heart run the show.

2.Close your eyes and see with your heart.Let your heart listen not your ears.

3.Don't allow your brain to say too old,too young,too pretty,too ugly,too rich, too poor.

4.Don't allow your eyes to see only the physical beauty.Let your heart see the inner beauty,the true essence of beauty.

5.Don't allow your ears to be swayed with words dripping with honey and spoiled by lies.

6.Keep your heart open,allow love to come to you because like a butterflythe harder you chase it the farther it flies.

Sunday, December 5, 2010

CRY



I'm not the type to get my heart broken
I'm not the type to get upset and cry
Cause I never leave my heart open
Never hurts me to say goodbye
Relationships don't get deep to me
Never got the whole in love thing
And someone can say they love me truly
But at the time it didn't mean a thing

My mind is gone, I'm spinning round
And deep inside, my tears I'll drown
I'm losing grip, what's happening
I stray from love, this is how I feel
This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

Did it happen when we first kissed?
Cause it's hurting me to let it go
Maybe 'cause we spent so much time
And I know that it's no more
I should've never let you hold me baby
Maybe why I'm sad to see us apart
I didn't give to you on purpose
Can't figure out how you stole my heart


How did I get here with you, I'll never know?
I never meant to let it get so, personal
And after all I tried to do, to stay away from loving you
I'm broken heart and I can't let you know
And I won't let it show
You won't see me cry

This time was different
Felt like, I was just a victim
And it cut me like a knife
When you walked out of my life
Now I'm, in this condition
And I've, got all the symptoms
Of a girl with a broken heart
But no matter what you'll never see me cry

All my life...

AIDS.....Lets Fight It



1st December 2010 Worlds AIDS Day.....RECITATION OF POEM at IUST

Out of the darkness without any test,
A heavy burden was laid on our chests.
Where this disease came from, no one is sure,
All we know is that there is no cure.
It takes all lives, not only people who are gay,
The human life is the highest price to pay.
Young and old are dying all around,
Look at the people in your own towns.
We cry for help in so many ways,
But more lives are being lost every day.
There are drugs to ease the pain,
They don't work; the government gets the capital gains.
Your body, ready to go off at any day,
Hoping a cure would be found some way.
How many cries will it take to hear?
When someone you know has it, and their time is near.
It is something that we can no longer ignore,
Because it is coming closer, it might be next door.
So don't think that you can't get this disease called "AIDS",
More people then you think have it, they just won't say.
Wake up! We are dying and dropping like flies,
Don't wait until the human race is gone,
And then ask WHY?

Saturday, December 4, 2010

A Letter from Mom and Dad....



My child,

When I get old, I hope you understand and have patience with me
In case I break the plate, or spill soup on the table because I’m losing my eyesight, I hope you don’t yell at me.
Older people are sensitive, always having selfpity when you yell.
When my hearing gets worse and I can’t hear what you’re saying, I hope you don’t call me ‘Deaf!’
Please repeat what you said or write it down.

I’m sorry, my child.
I’m getting older.
When my knees get weaker, I hope you have the patience to help me get up.
Like how I used to help you while you were little, learning how to walk.
Please bear with me, when I keep repeating myself like a broken record, I hope you just keep listening to me.
Please don’t make fun of me, or get sick of listening to me.

Do you remember when you were little and you wanted a ballon? You repeated yourself over and over until you get what you wanted.
Please also pardon my smell. I smell like an old person.Please don’t force me to shower.
My body is weak.
Old peoople get sick easily when they’re cold. I hope I don’t gross you out.

Do you remember when you were little? I used to chase you around because you didn’t want to shower.
I hope you can be patient with me when I’m always cranky. It’s all part of getting old.
You’ll understand when you’re older.
And if you have spare time, I hope we can talk even for a few minutes.
I’m always all by myself all the time, and have no one to talk to.
I know you’re busy with work.
Even if you’re not interested in my stories, please have time for me.

Do you remember when you were little? I used to listen to your stories about your teddy bear.
When the time comes, and I get ill and bedridden, I hope you have the patience to take care of me.
I’m sorry if I accidentally wet the bed or make a mess.
I hope you have the patience to take care of me during the last few moments of my life.
I’m not going to last much longer, anyway.
When the time of my death comes, I hope you hold my hand and give me strength to face death.

And don’t worry..
When I finally meet our creator, I will whisper in his ear to bless you. Because you loved your Mom and Dad.
Thankyou so much for your care.
We love you.

Think of yourself as the rule, not the exception


I'm not always as confident as I seem.There are many nights and many days when all I want is to be held. I love being held...Always.

Sometimes I don't want to talk about what is bothering me.Sometimes I just want a hug.Sometimes I just want to lay on my bedroom floor, drown myself in music and cry. Sometimes I just want to leave behind everything. Sometimes I just want to runaway, and never come back. Sometimes I just want to run up to you. Sometimes I just want to slap you so hard. Sometimes I just want to tell you what I really think of you. Sometimes I just want to be alone. Sometimes I just want to eat ice cream and watch sappy romances all day long. Sometimes I just want to escape reality. Sometimes I just want to know how it feels like to have a true person falling in love with your smile. Sometimes I just want to get the hell out of this place. Sometimes I just want to wear and say what I want, without being judged. Sometimes I just want to be perfect in front of your eyes. Sometimes I just want to give up. Sometimes I just want to run. Sometimes I just want to be in your shoes. Sometimes I just want to feel like I’m on top of the world. Sometimes I just want to wish for a better tomorrow. Sometimes I just want to let go. Sometimes I just want to know if you really miss me.
But I know that sometimes, you don’t always get what you want and that is when I need someone who will let me cry.

I like when people aren't afraid to show what they're really feeling. I don't like when people run from their true feelings because it doesn't do anyone any good. I wear my heart on my sleeve, but I am not naive. I know what it feels like to be completely broken and I am all too familiar with what it means to be hurt. I know what it's like to see something funny and not laugh. I've been taken advantage of, used, and abused. My feelings have been blatantly disregarded. But I still believe that all people are good at heart and my trust in people has not diminished. To be completely honest, I hope it never does...Ever.

Friday, November 19, 2010

Get Rid of Sorrow



Why do you look so sad? What is the point of sorrow in your life? Are you living your life or just surviving?

People may laugh and play, but does that mean they don’t harbor sorrow and regret? If all the world continually grumbled about their problems, the world would be overcome with sorrow and discomfort. In such a climate could mankind survive? Could mankind develop?

But what if man were to look at himself inwardly, just like looking into a mirror—reflecting his sorrow with that of man’s history from the beginning of time. Consider the short years you spend in this life and look again at how short is the time of sorrow compared with that of happiness and contentment. What you need to do is get rid of the sorrow in your heart; cast it away and start finding ways to make you happy. Strength comes with the ability to feel content in the midst of trouble, frustration, and turmoil. But where does that innate happiness come from?


Allah created you, and He also created sorrow as a reflection of happiness. Through sorrow we appreciate joy, just like we comprehend coolness through knowing warmth. Sometimes man thinks he can do everything, that he can be perfect. Man fluctuates between underestimating himself and overestimating himself, rarely appreciating his true condition. Wisdom is built from experience, but how many times do we run away from mistakes that are the seeds of wisdom? Learn to roll with life’s punches and learn from your Lord about yourself, about life, and about what He wants from you His creature. If you run away from your mistakes, this will simply lead you to make more. Let your heart be attached to the Almighty, Who is the Infallible, the All-Knowing. Then you will know yourself and begin to grow.

If you spend your life blaming yourself for everything that happens, you are guilty of denying the role of destiny in your life; you are also guilty of blaming your Lord for creating certain circumstances! Do we, tiny creatures that we are, possibly comprehend the wisdom of the Creator? Mankind sees through a narrow vision of life: we cannot perceive what others perceive; we cannot see life in its overall beauty. So why do we complain, blame, and feel hopeless?


Overwhelming sorrow is destructive, and uncontrollable sadness is disastrous. These things are tools in the hands of Satan to control mankind and lead him, unawares, to his destruction. Happiness, on the other hand, is distributed by the angels, so take your share and give it to others—then indeed, it will again be returned to you.

Excessive weeping over a problem or sorrow is a sign of dissatisfaction with your Lord. It is natural for mankind to experience a variety of emotions and, indeed, this is what makes him unique; but the wallow in these emotions will destroy us. Allah the Almighty has called on us to rein in these emotions and make them follow a positive and beautiful channel. And at times of grief, it is the ultimate test to wade through negativity and hopelessness and squeeze the following words out of your mouth: “From Allah we come and to Him we shall return.” At that moment of submission your soul will be set free from the sadness that threatens to swallow you up.


Truly in the remembrance of the Lord do the hearts find rest.

On the way to the sorrow


On the Way submit the Sorrow,
I Found Many Options to Check tomorrow
Fake Some Were,Some Were genuine,
Some Were Really Hard to Handle

I Changed my Mind & Changed the Way
Submit The Sorrow
Welcome the path and think the Way as Entirely different
I Made a Choice, Checked myself,
Had a Spirit Overcome the pain

Slowly it Works down,
I Was Tired & Thursty
Spirit Was Something you submit outstandingly
Taught ME a Lifetime lesson,to Achieve Something my Way
Be Myself Without Any interference from even the inner ME

NOW When I Look back Those days
I Can show Myself That I had been so True
Feel SO Proud To Vent Away Those days
The Way of the Sorrow

All I can say that the path of sorrow goes on.You encounter so many people that are always ready to breakdown your spirit when you try to handle yourself.So think about yourself,your happiness.Give yourself and your priorities a higher grade.Its the the way of your outlook that Changes you and your life.Strive for a better and happy life .

Tuesday, November 16, 2010

Please Forgive Me


It still feels like our first night together
Feels like the first kiss and
It's gettin' better baby
No one can better this
I'm still hold on and you're still the one
The first time our eyes met it's the same feelin' I get
Only feels much stronger and I wanna love ya longer
You still turn the fire on

So If you're feelin' lonely.. don't
You're the only one I'd ever want
I only wanna make it good
So if I love ya a little more than I should

Please forgive me I know not what I do
Please forgive me I can't stop lovin' you
Don't deny me

This pain I'm going through
Please forgive me
If I need ya like I do
Please believe me
Every word I say is true
Please forgive me I can't stop loving you
Still feels like our best times are together
Feels like the first touch

We're still gettin' closer baby
Can't get close enough I'm still holdin' on
You're still number one I remember the smell of your skin
I remember everything
I remember all your moves
I remember you
I remember the nights ya know I still do

One thing I'm sure of
Is the way we make love
And the one thing I depend on
Is for us to stay strong
With every word and every breath I'm prayin'
That's why I'm sayin'...

I Will Survive


You like to think that you'll be the only one who understands me with it
And you tell everyone that I can't live without you even for one day
But who gave you the right to talk about the way I feel so deep inside
Now I realize you were never mine, you were never right
Baby you will find
I will survive
I'm gonna make it through
Just give me time
I will get over you
I will survive
No matter what you do
Just need to see I will get over you
Cause baby we'll survive
Cause baby we'll survive

What makes you think that I don't see the way you made a fool of me
To laugh behind my back ???
Cause what goes around
I promise you comes back
Now I realize you were never mine, we were never right
Baby you will find
I will survive
I'm gonna make it through
Just give me time
I will get over you
I will survive
No matter what you do
Just need to see I will get over you
Cause baby we'll survive

I will survive
I'm gonna make it through
I will survive
I will get over you
Cause baby we'll survive

Monday, November 8, 2010

Blind


I think you got the best of me
You're sleepin' with the enemy
You left me all alone, alone, alone, alone
The beat drops, I'm so low
My heart stops, I already know
You left me all alone, alone, alone, alone

I'm sick and tired of the mess you made me
Never gonna catch me cry
Oh whoa whoa
You must be blind if you can't see
You'll miss me til the day you die
Oh whoa whoa
Without me, you're nothing
Oh whoa whoa
You must be blind if you can't see
You'll miss me til the day you die
Oh whoa whoa

I've let go, finally over you
This drama that you put me through
I'm better all alone, alone, alone, alone
The beat drops, you're so low
It's last call and it's gotten old
Now look who's all alone, alone, alone, alone

I'm sick and tired of the mess you made me
Never gonna catch me cry
Oh whoa whoa
You must be blind if you can't see
You'll miss me til the day you die
Oh whoa whoa
Without me, you're nothing
Oh whoa whoa
You must be blind if you can't see
You'll miss me til the day you die
Oh whoa whoa

I trusted you, you were the first
Then you lied and it get's worse
You broke me down
Now just look around
Who's all alone?
Who's all alone now?

I'm sick and tired of the mess you made me
Never gonna catch me cry
Oh whoa whoa
You must be blind if you can't see
You'll miss me til the day you die
Oh whoa whoa
Without me, you're nothing
Oh whoa whoa
You must be blind if you can't see
You'll miss me til the day you die

Amazing Proposal Ever



You are so beautiful
To me
You are so beautiful
To me
Can't you see
You're everything I hoped for
You're everything I need
You are so beautiful
To me

Somebody's Me



You, do you remember me?
Like I remember you?
Do you spend your life
Going back in your mind to that time?
Because I, I walk the streets alone
I hate being on my own
And everyone can see that I really fell
And I'm going through hell
Thinking about you with somebody else


Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes that one day you will see
That Somebody's Me

How, How could we go wrong
It was so good and now it's gone
And I pray at night that our paths soon will cross
And what we had isn't lost
Cause you're always right here in my thoughts

Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes that one day you will see
That Somebody's Me

You'll always be in my life
Even if I'm not in your life
Because you're in my memory
You, when you remember me
And before you set me free
Oh listen please

Somebody wants you
Somebody needs you
Somebody dreams about you every single night
Somebody can't breath without you, it's lonely
Somebody hopes that one day you will see
That Somebody's Me

Thankyou to those who left me.You showed me that nothing lasts forever


Love is when you can't be apart from someone for too long.You're always thinking of them, and when you're with them you never want to say goodbye. Love is far from simple.It's quite complex.It's a mix of about everything.

It's sadness, joy, passion, hatred, excitement.It's almost every feeling you can imagine.You know love when you find it, it's that person that when they smile it brightens up your day.You can't stop staring at them for fear of losing them.They're always on your mind.You daydream of being with them, even if they're less than 20 feet away and you can't stand it when they're not with you.

The worst feeling you could ever feel is when you know that person you love is not with you.You can't tell when love will happen, you just know when it does, that moment when you first lay eyes on that person, and you never want to look away-that is love.Nothing less than a perfect feeling.

I don’t know where you are, or what you're doing right now. No matter if you hate me now, or love me still I always will. I'll always remember you as the wide eyed boy who I fell in love with, not the tired eyed boy who I grew to despise. But I heard this saying right here "You don’t just stop loving someone, you either never did or you always will."

I trusted you because you were the closest thing to myself I have ever found in another person.I let you know so much about me for you only to run away again and prove me wrong.This has changed you so much.And its like you are falling from the crease of my heart scratching it deap as you struggle not to let go.But we both know that its a sure thing.We cant stop it.


So I guess I still love you.Even if I move on, or you move on, it doesn’t mean I don’t still love you. It just means I loved you enough to let you be happy. I want what’s best for you. So hear me out. I love you, I always will.Trying to forget about someone you loved, is like trying to forget what the back of your hand looks like,whatever you do there is always something to remind you of that thing your trying to forget.But it’s time for me to move on.

Goodbye...
I love you...Forever.

Sunday, November 7, 2010

I was never wrong.I once thought I was wrong but I was mistaken.




To hide is to shyly remain alone away from all others out of fear. This is an attempt to erase yourself from the minds of those who have seen you, to leave them with a whisper of information about you and nothing more until that whisper is a silence, and their memory of you fades but doesn't ever disapear only because you wish for it to. So you can hide all you wish but your presence is never non-existant.You can hide from the world all you want but never completly, those who hide are many a time the ones searched for by curious eyes.

You had your turn and you treated me like trash that you wanted to burn. All I got to say is I'm walking away. Don't try to change my mind because I'm not pressing rewind. I'm looking straight ahead and to me this relationship is now dead.I want to be alright without you. I want to smile, I want to laugh, I just want to stop lying to myself. You've been pulling me down for way too long and I know now it's time to let you go. It's time I stop worrying about you and your precious little life; it's time I think about myself for a change. It's time I treat myself right and leave behind those who don't. It's time I dig myself out of this hole and start all over again.

As we grow up, we learn that even the one person that wasn't supposed to ever let us down, probably will. You'll have your heart broken and you'll break others' hearts. You'll fight with your best friend or maybe even fall in love with them, and you'll cry because time is flying by. So its better to take too many pictures, laugh too much, forgive freely, and love like you've never been hurt. Life comes with no guarantees, no time outs, no second chances. you just have to live life to the fullest, tell someone what they mean to you and tell someone off, speak out, dance in the pouring rain, hold someone's hand, comfort a friend, fall asleep watching the sun come up, stay up late, be a flirt, and smile until your face hurts. Don't be afraid to take chances or fall in love and most of all, live in the moment because every second you spend angry or upset is a second of happiness you can never get back.

WEARY OF LIFE


Tired with this life i am
Never did i taste such a thing
My thoughts are just soo jammed
Like the council of a king....

I dont know what should i do
When i am hanging around in a crossroad
Where kind-hearted and honest so few
And heart burdened with a huge load....

A load of living such a life
Where there no end is
For sorrows and grief
And lips heavy with the devil's kiss....

Weary I am with this life
Arms raising out to embrace death
I cannot live in this strife
When my life is full of wrath....

Troubles are not gonna end I know
In ones life ups and downs are for sure
Bliss may fall in its height low
For this there is no remedy or cure....

But i in search of bliss wonder around
My case is horrendous than everyone else
Troubles and strifes are unending found
And in my life all ups are just false....

Downs never get too long
Nor do they take much time to go
But I am lost in this throng
Of troubles who no sign of leaving show....

Lost i am soo much in this burden
That impossible it is to come out
From this burden that on me is laden
Only my end can pull me out....

Heartbreaker




There’s a line that you cross,
When you’ve lost someone, and you can’t accept it
Oh no, ohoh
There’s a space in between a denial (?)
knowing that I can’t erase it,
Can’t face it, noo
You never be the one that gonna find themselves alone, noo (not sure about this one)
You never be the one to beg excuse of what you’ve done
You’re a heartbreaker , breaker
Tell me now
Why the hell you gotta be a heartbreaker, breaker
Leave me now
Why the hell you gotta be a heartbreaker
All the walls come down in the end
And nothing ever last forever oh no, hey
There’s a line up ahead
I know I (give?) it
It’s taken only make me stronger (also not sure)
Make me stronger, yeah
You never be the one who gonna find themselves alone
You never be the one to beg excuse of what you’ve done
You’re a heart breaker,breaker
Tell me now
Why the hell you gotta be a heartbreaker, breaker
Leave me now
Why the hell you gotta be a heartbreaker, breaker
Breaker, breaker
Whatever it is, whatever it was
I know you’ve done this before
I say, whatever it is, whatever it was
I just gotta let it go
You’re a heartbreaker, breaker
Tell me now
Why the hell you gotta be a heartbreaker, breaker
Leave me now, now now now
Tell me tell me
Why did you gone and break my heart
Tell me tell me
why did you gone and break my heart
You’re a heartbreaker
Tell me now
Why the hell you gotta be a heartbreaker, breaker
Leave me now
Why the hell you gotta be a heart breaker, breaker breaker breaker breaker..

Why Not Me



Escaping nights without you
with shadows on the wall
my mind is running wild
trying hard not to fall
you told me that you love me
but say I'm just a friend
my heart is broken up into pieces
cos I know
I'll never free my soul
it's trapped between true love and being alone
when my eyes are closed
the greatest story told
I woke and my dreams are shattered here on the floor

why oh why
tell me why not me
why oh why
we were meant to be
baby i know i could be all you need
why oh why oh why
I wanna love you
if you only knew how much I love you
so why not me

the day after tomorrow
I'll still be around
to catch you when you fall
and never let you down
you say that we're forever
our love will never end
I've tried to come up
but it's drowning me to know
you'll never free my soul
it's trapped in between true love and being alone
when my eyes are closed
the greatest story told
I woke and my dreams are shattered here on the floor

Tell me baby
why oh why
tell me why not me
why oh why
we were meant to be
baby i know I could be all you need
why oh why oh why
I wanna love you
if you only knew how much I love you
so why not me

you won't ever know
how far we can go
you won't ever know
how far we can go (go)

why oh why
tell me why not me
why oh why
we were meant to be
baby I know I could be all you need
why oh why oh why

why oh why
tell me why not me
why oh why
we were meant to be
baby I know i could be all you need
why oh why oh why oh why
I wanna love you
if you only knew how much I love you
so why not me

APOLOGIZE


I'm holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground
And I'm hearing what you say
But I just can't make a sound
You tell me that you need me
Then you go and cut me down
But wait...
You tell me that you're sorry
Didn't think I'd turn around and say..

That it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late

I'd take another chance, take a fall, take a shot for you
And I need you like a heart needs a beat
(But that's nothing new)
Yeah yeah

I loved you with a fire red, now it's turning blue
And you say
Sorry like the Angel Heaven let me think was you,
But I'm afraid

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
Woahooo woah

It's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, it's too late
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah
I said it's too late to apologize, yeah

I'm holding on your rope
Got me ten feet off the ground...

KISS


I just cant understand the hearts of men
they tell you they want you and then they leave you
this is the first time, you're special
I believed those words and I was so happy

You should have told me you didn't like me any more
but I couldn't see that and you just rushed me
although I will curse you I'll still miss you
Because I am a girl, to whom love is everything

I heard that if you give up things too easily
to a man, he will get bored with you
I don't think this is wrong
a girl says that she will never be fooled again
but she will fall in love again

you should have told me you didn't like me any more
but I couldn't see that and you just rushed me
although I will curse you I'll still miss you
Because I am a girl, to whom love is everything

[narration]
Hey babe
the pain
it's not enough to describe how i feel
we were so happy together
but I know now
I've been blind
you told me that you'd never let me down
whenever I needed you you'd always be here
I can forgive but I cant forget
even though you hurt me
I still love you
I still love you
Don't take advantage of a girl's willingness to do anything for love
and her caring instinct
U didn't know that to be born as a girl and to be loved was so hard
Although i will curse you i'll still miss you
Because I am a girl, to whom love is everything
although i will curse you i'll still miss you
Because I am a girl, to whom love is everything

[the guy said]
there is a girl whom I love. Now I can`t stay with her, but I still love her.

Saturday, November 6, 2010

Melt The Snow



Sometimes out my window
I notice that you've been cryin' over him
And I wonder why you just don't
Kick him to the curb instead of bein' with him

You see love at first is summer time
That's when you think that everything's fine
No one ever thinks it's gonna end

But when things go wrong and winter comes
You're gonna need to run to someone
Left alone you'll just freeze up again

But you should know
When it gets too cold
You're not alone
I'll melt the snow

Some nights I can hear you
Screamin' on the phone over somethin' that he did
And I wonder what can I do
To make you throw him out so you can let me in

You see love at first is summer time
That's when you think that everything's fine
No one ever thinks it's gonna end

But when things go wrong and winter comes
You're gonna need to run to someone
Left alone you'll just freeze up again

But you should know
When it gets too cold
You're not alone
I'll melt the snow, I'll melt the snow

I'll, I'll melt the snow, I'll, I'll melt the snow
I'll, I'll melt the snow, I'll, I'll melt the snow
I'll, I'll melt the snow, I'll, I'll melt the snow

You see love at first is summer time
That's when you think that everything's fine
No one ever thinks it's gonna end

But when things go wrong and winter comes
You're gonna need to run to someone
Left alone you'll just freeze up again

You see love at first is summer time
That's when you think that everything's fine
No one ever thinks it's gonna end

But when things go wrong and winter comes
You're gonna need to run to someone
Left alone you'll just freeze up again

But you should know
When it gets too cold
You're not alone
I'll melt the snow

But you should know
When it gets too cold
You're not alone
I'll melt the snow
I'll melt the snow

No Promises


Hey baby, when we are together
Doing things that we love
Every time you're near I feel like I'm in heaven
Feeling high
I don't want to let go, girl
I just need you to know, girl

I don't wanna run away
Baby, you're the one I need tonight
No promises
Baby, now I need to hold you tight
I just wanna die in your arms here tonight

Hey baby, when we are together
Doing things that we love
Every time you're near I feel like I'm in heaven
Feeling high
I don't want to let go, girl
I just need you to know, girl

I don't wanna run away
Baby, you're the one I need tonight
No promises
Baby, now I need to hold you tight
I just wanna die in your arms

I don't wanna run away
I want to stay forever through time and time
No promises

I don't wanna run away
I don't wanna be alone
No promises
Baby, now I need to hold you tight
Now and forever, my love
No promises

I don't wanna run away
Baby, you're the one I need tonight
No promises
Baby, now I need to hold you tight
I just wanna die in your arms here tonight

I don't wanna run away
Baby, you're the one I need tonight
No promises
Baby, now I need to hold you tight
I just wanna die in your arms here tonight

Friday, November 5, 2010

Fire Flies


You would not believe your eyes
If ten million fireflies
Light up the world as I fell asleep
Cause they fill the open air
And leave teardrops everywhere
You'd think me rude
But I would just stand and stare

I'd like to make myself believe that planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep
Cause everything is never as it seems

Cause I'd get a thousand hugs
From ten thousand lightning bugs
As they tried to teach me how to dance
A foxtrot above my head
A sock hop beneath my bed
A disco ball is just hanging by a thread (thread, thread)

I'd like to make myself believe that planet earth turns slowly
It’s hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep
Cause everything is never as it seems (when I fall asleep)
Leave my door open just a crack (Please take me away from here)
Cause I feel like such an insomniac (Please take me away from here)
Why do I tire of counting sheep? (Please take me away from here)
When I'm far too tired to fall asleep

To ten million fireflies
I'm weird cause I hate goodbyes
I got misty eyes as they said farewell (said farewell)
But I'll know where several are
If my dreams get real bizarre
Cause I saved a few and I keep them in a jar

I'd like to make myself believe that planet earth turns slowly
It's hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep
Cause everything is never as it seems

I'd like to make myself believe that planet earth turns slowly
It’s hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep
Cause everything is never as it seems (when I fall asleep)

I'd like to make myself believe that planet earth turns slowly
It’s hard to say that I'd rather stay awake when I'm asleep
Because my dreams are bursting at the seams

Tuesday, November 2, 2010

Emptiness- I Feel So Lonely



Ho love of mine..
with a song and a wine..
You’re harsh and divine..
like truths and a lie..

But the tale ends not here..
I've nothing to fear..
for my love is yell of giving an hold on…
in the bright emptiness..
in the room full of it..
is the cool Mr S ho ho o…

I feel the sunrise..
that nest all hollowness..
or I have the way to go.. not come…
And I feel so lonely yea..

There is a better place from this emptiness..
And I’m so lonely yea..
There is a better place from this emptiness..

yei yei yei ya….
Aa.. aa.. aa…..

Tune mere jaana..
Kabhi nahi jana..
Ishq mera dard mera.. haaye…

Tune mere jaana..
Kabhi nahi jana..
Ishq mera dard mera …

Aashiq teraaa..
Bheed mein khoya rehta hai..
Jaane ja haan a..
Puchho toh itna kehta hai..

And I feel so lonely yea..
There is a better place from this emptiness..
And I’m so lonely yea..
There is a better please from this emptiness..
yei yei yei ya….

Trouble Is A friend


Trouble he will find you no matter where you go oh oh
No matter if you're fast no matter if you're slow oh oh
The eye of the storm or the cry in the mourn oh oh
You're fine for a while but you start to lose control

He's there in the dark he's there in my heart
He waits in the wings he's gotta play a part
Trouble is a friend yeah trouble is a friend of mine oh oh!

Trouble is a friend but trouble is a foe oh oh
And no matter what i feed him he always seems to grow oh oh
He sees what i see and he knows what i know oh oh
So don't forget as you ease on down the road

He's there in the dark he's there in my heart
He waits in the wings he's gotta play a part
Trouble is a friend yeah trouble is a friend of mine oh oh

So don't be alarmed if he takes you by the arm
I won't let him win but i'm a sucker for his charm
Trouble is a friend yeah trouble is a friend of mine oh oh!

Oh how i hate the way he makes me feel
And how i try to make him leave i try
Oh oh i try!

He's there in the dark he's there in my heart
He waits in the wings he's gotta play a part
Trouble is a friend yeah trouble is a friend of mine oh oh

So don't be alarmed if he takes you by the arm
I won't let him win but i'm a sucker for his charm
Trouble is a friend yeah trouble is a friend of mine oh oh!
Ooo oh ooo ooo ahh

Monday, November 1, 2010

The Reason




I'm not a perfect person
There's many things I wish I didn't do
But I continue learning
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I'm sorry that I hurt you
It's something I must live with everyday
And all the pain I put you through
I wish that I could take it all away
And be the one who catches all your tears
Thats why i need you to hear

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is You

I'm not a perfect person
I never meant to do those things to you
And so I have to say before I go
That I just want you to know

I've found a reason for me
To change who I used to be
A reason to start over new
and the reason is you

I've found a reason to show
A side of me you didn't know
A reason for all that I do
And the reason is you

Sunday, October 31, 2010

HOPE



When all about you is black with gloom,
And all you feel is pending doom.
When your bones are racked with grim despair
When every breath is a gasp for air.
Keep on going, though you need to grope,
For around the bend is a ray of hope.

A ray of hope is perhaps all that's left,
As your will to live has been bereft.
You've lost it all, it's just no use!
You can end it all, you need no excuse.
But throw away that piece of rope,
And give yourself a chance of hope.

Just give yourself another day,
Brushing aside what your thoughts may say.
This is your life and you can make a new start,
By ignoring the brain - just follow the heart.
Taking baby steps in order to cope,
And minute by minute you'll build on your hope.

Build on your hope, One day at a time,
Though the road be steep and hard to climb.
The hurts of the past - they should be dead.
The fears of the future are all in your head.
Just live in the present and refuse to mope
Your life will sparkle for you are living in hope.

Saturday, October 30, 2010

Think About Others....You will Forget Your Pain


This is not a quote but a series of things that I have come to realize in my so short life.

Love is not pure happiness, you will get sad, you will be angry, you will get scared, you will hate the one you love, maybe not forever. Some aren't ready for it, and give up, while others are true to each other and they survive.


Life will never be easy, no matter where you come from, how much money you have, no matter how good your parents were. Some will have it harder than you. Yet they still survive and keep on.


The world is cruel and dangerous place for everyone, there is no paradise or heaven, this is how it has always been. But most of us see tomorrow, and I cry for those who don't.


Death is something none of us can escape, no matter what God or thing you believe in, we all fear it because it is a great unknown fate. Does it really matter what comes after death, you have a long life ahead of you, why worry about what comes after that.


We all judge each other, for reasons I can't understand, if someone has a problem there will be someone that doesn't know him or her that will judge him or her, think about it, would that person treat him/her badly or drink his or her life away if they were happy. Don't judge others or atleast think before you do.


Just look at why people everywhere are not satisfied with their lives, there are alot of people with dreams, hopes and longings. They want to share love, tears, pain, hatred and happiness.

I read hundreds of posts everyday, I don't understand them all, but I love reading them. I cry, I smile, I laugh. I could read hundreds of books and not find the same emotions that I come across everyday.

I don't know anyone of them, but I see people who want to share wisdom, experiences, broken hearts, death of a loved ones, joy of life everything.
I see inspiration, motivation and creativity.

We share stories, and feelings even though we do not know a thing about eachother.
Now this is a world I dream about.

Saturday, October 23, 2010

Where did my smile go?


What compelled me to write here again.May be more gloominess.Why is it so?
I wanna live.I wanna be happy.Mind my own business.None of it happens.NOBODY can undrstand what I'm going through and what I go through everyday.My own identity haunts me.To see myself in mirror scares me.Nobody cares.Selfish strange people care about their own perspectives.Why I feel I'm only one who considered and understood other's perspective along with mine.
My tears have gone dry and I'm slowly becoming hard and cold inside.I don't know whats going on.I just don't get anything. What I feel I'm not accepted for it.What I don't feel,I'm made to feel and accept that.Don't know how to end this story now.All I can say now is that Life teaches us in every step.THE MOMENT WE START TRUSTING SOMEONE BLINDLY that person breaks you.WHEN YOU EXPECT YOUR SILENCE TO BE UNDERSTOOD people take your words wrong,gestures aren't important even though shown heartily but fake words are appreciated!!
So don't make anyone your life,don't b affected by anyone's absence because when you face darkness it's you all alone who has to face it.I know no one can get me my life back.No one can ever bring that smile that brightened my day back.It has gone and even if I try to smile it hurts deep inside.The fake one I carry everyday along.But I usually ask myself,Where did my smile go?

Where did that smile go?
That small curve that everyone loved
Where did my smile go?
The curve that lit nights

Did it fly away with the wind
Or did it get buried into sands?
Did the spider take it and hid it in his web
Or did someone take it into his lands?

Where did my smile go?
The unique identity that I owned
Did it fall off while trekking
Or did the mountain ghost masticate it?

Did it get dissolved in acids
Or did it vaporise into gas?
Where did my smile go?
The smile I had, all while...
Where did it go?Who took it?

Friday, October 22, 2010

I Like it When it Rains




I like the rain. Why? Well, I can think of reasons I like it when it rains. I am the type who could go out and dance in the rain and not care who’s watching… that’s how much I like it. Well, let’s get started with those 7 reasons…
7. It’s Peaceful
Some people do not believe this, they get scared when it starts to thunder. However, I feel more at peace. I can easily relax when it is raining.
6. Good Reading Weather
I believe the rain makes good reading weather. On those rainy days, I just want to curl up on the couch and read a good book as I listen to the rain hit the roofs.
5. Good Writing Weather
Just as the rain makes good reading weather, it also makes good writing weather. While I am a fast writer, no matter what, I find it much more relaxing to write when it is raining. It’s not just because it cools the place down, because I like the rain, even during the winter months.
4. Makes it Pretty Outside
I also enjoy the beauty of the rain. I believe it is a very pretty thing that nature does. Some of the best pictures are taken in the rain. Not to mention how cool the clouds look during thunderstorms.
3. It Cools the Outside Off
As I said, this isn’t a main reason I like the rain, but that does not mean that I don’t like the reason. I like how the rain comes along and cools the outside off.
2. The Plants Enjoy it
If you look outside after it is raining, the plants look so happy. The plants that are outside enjoy the rain. Sometimes, when I see rain coming, I like to put my houseplants outside so they can take advantage of that rain as well. I think of it as a treat to them.
1. It Makes Me Smile
I believe one of the number one reasons to like the rain is because it makes me smile inside. I love to see the children laughing and playing in the yard after the cool rain. Not too long ago, I saw a couple of guys sitting at a bus stop in the rain. They were huddled up under the patio trying to keep dry. A big truck zoomed past and water from a puddle slung up on them. At first, it looked serious, but when they looked at each other and burst out in laughter, I learned that it wasn’t as serious as it looked. I bet they went home and told everyone about how a big truck splashed them. When they started laughing, I couldn’t help but to laugh too.
Those are 7 Reasons I like it when it rains. In the rain, it seems that anything goes. I do hate driving in the rain… the roads are slippery and back wheel drive does not help the situation. When it’s raining, I know there are a lot of happy moments, but you still have to be safe and don’t lose your mind. Drive safe and if you don’t think you can drive in the rain, then don’t do it, if you have an option. So, what are some things you like about the rain?

6 Colours And How They Affect Your Mood …


How much thought do you give to choosing colours? Most people would say hardly any, picking their favourite from the selection available, so you might be surprised to learn how much of an effect colours can have on our moods! While colours can be subjective, most have a universal effect, and I was really surprised to learn how much of an impact they can have on our daily lives. Here are my six effects everyone should know about…

1. Black
Black is a very powerful, strong colour. It consumes all other light in the colour spectrum, and is often used to represent strong characters such as Dracula, or witches. Some cultures link black to death and mourning, others to rebirth and life. The strong link? Black’s power. Think about how black is used…black belt, black tie, black market…and that most people dress in black to work. Black gives the feeling of importance, control and strength.

2. White
White is often used to portray innocence and naivety. It is a very pure colour, and is often used in new houses, to make rooms look bigger and brighter. It’s also a very cold colour, though, giving the effect of sterile blandness. Rooms which are painted white often look bigger, but they seem empty and unlived in. White can make us feel pure; or empty.

3. Red
Red is a colour that always evokes strong emotions. It is often associated with passion, love and lust, and this can make it both a sexy and comforting colour. It can also be linked to anger and excitement, and is generally responsible for intense feelings. Consider things people often buy in red…red lingerie and red dresses, and the expressions “painting the town red”, and “seeing red”. Red happens to be my favourite colour, too, which indicates that I live for intensity and feeling alive.

4. Blue
Blue is the most common favourite colour, especially for men. It is a calm colour, and is often described as being sterile, tranquil, calm and serene. Studies have shown that people are more productive in rooms that are painted blue, and that it can sometimes cause feelings of sadness and confusion. Blue is also a colour often used by dieters, as it is the least appetizing colour. Using blue plates and cutlery can limit how much you eat! Showing patients the colour blue has also been proved to lower pulse rate and body temperature.

5. Green
Green is another colour that seems to indicate very different feelings. For some, it indicates nature, and tranquillity. It feels healthy, and pure. It is also often the colour associated with jealousy, and hurt. In the 15th Century, green was used as a fertility symbol, and green rooms are often used to calm nerves, relieve stress and begin healing. Green rooms have even been proved to reduce stomach aches!

6. Orange
Orange is a combination of yellow and red, and is often seen as an energetic, bouncy colour. It is often used to attract attention, such as on road signs and in advertising campaign. A recent study found that participants linked orange with excitement, enthusiasm, and warmth, which makes it a great colour to incorporate into your home. Avoid yellowy-orange, though, as yellow rooms can cause headaches.

Boulevard Of Broken Dreams






I walk a lonely road
The only one that I have ever known
Don't know where it goes
But it's home to me and I walk alone

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
and I'm the only one and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah,
Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I'm walking down the line
That divides me somewhere in my mind
On the border line
Of the edge and where I walk alone

Read between the lines
What's fucked up and everything's alright
Check my vital signs
To know I'm still alive and I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk alone

I walk alone
I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone

Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Ah-ah, Aaah-ah
Ah-ah, Ah-ah

I walk alone
I walk a...

I walk this empty street
On the Boulevard of Broken Dreams
Where the city sleeps
And I'm the only one and I walk a...

My shadow's the only one that walks beside me
My shallow heart's the only thing that's beating
Sometimes I wish someone out there will find me
'Til then I walk alone...

Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it’s better to leave them broken than try to hurt yourself putting it back together


How long will it be before you can get through your daily routine without feeling the wave of pain sweep over you, without sensing that knot in the pit of your stomach, without dwelling on what went wrong? If these are some of the questions you are asking yourself, you are not alone.

A broken heart can cause such an intense reaction that many of us feel our lives have been completely stripped of meaning. College, fun , hobbies, and friends no longer hold any joy for us. In fact, some even experience physical pain with a tight chest, nervous stomach, or terrible insomnia. Time heals all wounds is what we have all heard over the years, but do you really have to wait for time to heal these wounds? Absolutely not.

You are sitting remembering all the moments you were together .You decide to message. You debate whether to send it or not. You stare and decide to send while your mind tells you to have more respect for yourself. You logically understand that sending the message is not going to make the situation any better – nor will it heal your pain. Therefore you decide to start to live for yourself at least give a try.The scenario above represents one example of a misalignment between your heart and your mind that is a common occurrence. Every decision you make is determined by a combination of your logic and emotion. If these different elements that make you who you are, are not in agreement, you will understandably feel conflicted and make decisions that reflect this conflict.

People may say no one ever died of a broken heart, but when you're suffering from one, it sure doesn't feel that way--at least initially.When relationships go sour, our great loves lost to the confusion of the universe, it's very easy to be caught off guard. Initially we find ourselves blessed with a feeling of freedom, a brand new start, where we can set new rules and reorganize our chaotic lives. A few days may pass as we quietly ignore the itching pain at the back of our mind telling us that something is horribly wrong.

Sadly in time our psyche eventually wonders back to our former love. Our body craves them, our mind wants them back, and a feeling of complete desperation kicks in. For whatever reason, something seems to be missing. We can't necessarily pin point the key attribute that we crave, only that as a package they seemed so unique. How are we to ever live without this person,we think to ourselves.

Once you recognize that getting back together is no longer an option comes the sudden realization that you have some serious mental spring cleaning to do. The problem is, where do you start and where do you put all of this excess emotion. Everyone has their own unique break up procedure. Some may isolate themselves in bed for weeks on end, while others find their comfort in a liquid form or smoke as hard as possible for them. Whatever the case, anything to aid the mission, to keep your mind off the empty hole in your chest.

The argument I want to bring up here is not how to get over someone as quickly as possible but how to get over someone the right way, without resentment and with more understanding. Although this way of thinking is much harder then the quick route, in the end you'll come out of it as a much stronger person. I have found no better inspiration in life then that of one from a broken heart, what better time for getting well acquainted with yourself then that of a time where most of your mental walls are at their weakest.

"To appreciate the highs, one has to understand the ever following lows"

As near impossible as it may seem, you have to dissociate yourself from the situation and try to look at it from a rational point of view. The heart broken tend to over analyze, the good, the bad, and everything in between. Often you can find yourself concentrating on what went wrong, rarely nothing what the other person contributed to end everything. It's easy to individualize everything to make yourself feel like the bad person, but it's definitely a two way street.

Take the proper time out
Make sure you give yourself a proper amount of healing time, otherwise you may be paying for it later. Like walking on a broken leg, your heart needs time to heal as well. Although filling the void with a new person is tempting, it generally leads to disaster.Tell to yourself why to get affected .Live and care for yourself rather than worrying about the whole world

Find a way to express your emotions
Write, draw or doodle, and try find someway to convert your insecurities to something constructive. Writing helps organize the bubbling thoughts in your mind. Arguments and inconsistencies that you'd generally like to harass the people who let you hurt will roam the mental plane until they get a chance to escape in one way or another.

Avoid over analysis
It's going to be tempting to over think everything, but it definitely not recommended.
• Were they lying to me the entire time?
• Will I ever love someone like this again?
• When did they fall out of love with me?"
• When they said they said they would be always there then where did they go?
• Did I impact them, or will I be forgotten?"
No matter what the circumstance, there's always going to be some unanswered questions. The smallest details suddenly seem important, and your mind craves nothing but the truth. You know its is over, but for some reason you want it to be justified. Sadly, lost love doesn't always have a reason, it just happens, and the answer you seek may not exist. Do your best to constructively get your mind off of things.


Seek Closure
After you've dealt with most of your mental recovery its time to get your closure. It's different for every person but this is the key moment. Like a flip of the switch, the pain will be greatly relieved. The realization that things will never be the same again, and that your ready to accept it and move on with your life. It's never definite what will set this change reaction off, but it is necessary for your mind to be at peace.


Accepting Your new reality... Without Resentment
The heartbreak is over, and your ready to step out into the world, what now? Your past was full of great memories, experiences, why put negative feelings towards them just because things didn't work out?
"It is better to have loved and lost than to have never loved at all."
One should appreciate love for what it was, not for what it is now, even if it can no longer be. The Lies, deception, and miscommunication around the end should not ruin your interpretation of the time that kept you happy.
Let's hope to be able to look back upon the good memories and feel warm, knowing that they are over and will never be again, but to appreciate them none the less for what they were. When you can remember the old times warmly without pining for them you'll know that you've reached a new level of mental enlightenment.

My happy moments are for everyone but my sad time is for me ONLY!



THIS IS WHAT LIFE IS ALL ABOUT

When tough situations arrive in your life don’t say "why me" but rather say "yeah sweetie...try me"......but you know what guys nowadays I hardly follow this funda of mine......I’m such a crazy girl.....but the truth is that sometimes it’s really difficult to ignore the problems and go ahead in life.....we talk a lot and its really very easy to give advices to others....but when it comes to ourselves....we get mad.....we don’t even care about all those advices we had given others when they were facing the same problems.....when they were going through the same dilemma........


What to say.....life is like this......sometimes it’s easy but sometimes it’s really tough.......sometimes it is fun but sometimes it gets really serious.......when we just can’t do anything but rather sit with hapless helplessness and deep frustration.....sometimes it gets lighted up with all immense satisfaction, contentment and happiness and we REALLY say with all true faith and feelings that "LIFE IS GREAT BUDDY !!!".......but when it comes to worriment, predicament and quandary......it is when we REALISE that life is really very complicated.....and we just can’t simply and so easily understand it.........Life never stops...Life goes on it never ends...Eyes of stone observe the trends...They never say forever gaze


So all we can do is that face both all the soft and hard blows of life....because these are the moments when you learn new things.....new lessons.....and slowly and gradually start understanding life.....and by the time we have understood it......we are already dead....buried beneath the soft earth...!!!.......so I think it’s better if we just don’t try to understand or know what is life...why and how we landed into the world of sufferings ..all I can say is that it’s a "FOUR LETTER WORD"....LIFE

Dedicated To All Those Who Lost Their LOVE



So many words for the broken heart
It's hard to see in the crimson love
So hard to breathe
Walk with me and maybe

Nights of light so soon become
Wild and free I can feel the sun
Our every wish will be done
They tell me

Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with?
Tell me why I can't be there where you are
There's something missin' in my heart

Life goes on as it never ends
Eyes of stone observe the trends
They never say forever gaze

If only guilty roads to an endless love
(Endless love)
There's no control, are you with me now?
Your every wish will be done, they tell me

Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with?
Tell me why I can't be there where you are
There's something missin' in my heart

There's no where to run, I have no place to go
Surrender my heart, body and soul
How can it be you're asking me to feel
Things you never show

You are missing in my heart
Tell me why I can't be there where you are

Show me the meaning of being lonely
Is this the feeling I need to walk with?
Tell me why I can't be there where you are
There's something missin' in my heart

Thursday, October 21, 2010

Ubi ...I miss You so much :(



I Miss you..I Miss the loud music coming from your Room,I Miss the warmth of knowing that you are just a call away,I Miss the way we fought & played,I Miss seeing your big bright smile,I Miss getting kicked out of your room, I Miss seeing u here and there

You have been there for me through it all ...You are alwayz there to catch me when I start to take a fall..You protected me from the world that left the bruises on your face,all the tears and scrapes I wish I could erase..When my life fell apart you patched things up you took care of my heart when times got rough..

And today when you are facing the tough times you may think I dont care because I never show it but I will always be here and I hope you know it...Remember I will be here through and through.You’re a part of me, and I can’t let go. I want you to know that my heart will always beat for you. Your pain is my own, and I wish you find happiness and peace of mind – for my peace of mind too. Because my heart hurts that yours is broken. I watch you twist and turn and I feel knotted up inside. I see you blink back tears, and my own eyes sting. I smile when you smile, brother.Because I do care and I love you.
Remember I will alwayz care just as much as you do......love ya so much ...I miss you every time.Hope to see you soon after 6 long years.I wish time flies and we get to be together again.